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today we worked on williamsburg agian.and we learned the hunch?hump?the name REALLY escapes me.today felt more closed off for me i guess.i felt less open and i regret that i wasn't as open.but i still enjoyed myself.my one "set-back" was when we worked with partners and lacey had us use someone in our life,i didn't feel alot of real emotion until the end of the exercise.but i really tried today.
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
tuesday's post
so shen teh is back in her shop.but everyone still mooches off of her.i really want to like scream at these characters and tell them to get lives or a job or something!!!shen teh needs everything she can get and do they not care?i realise that shen teh is a giving person but what about the morals of the others?i always feel guilty taking from other people,but i never like to willingly take from people who need it more.but they just don't care!!!they can't just move on and support themselves.or even say oh thank you for offering,but no.they just keep saying where's my this?wheres that?sheh ten needs this.she came from nothing and now she has something,but they just take and take.
i guess its brecht's way of differentiating between sheh ten's goodness and kindness and the rest of the "normal" world's mentalities,that they come first.so brecht pushes the ruder things people do to extremes and in some cases not even to extremes,just to show that good people like true good people are hard to come by.AND because someone said that shen teh is the cousin too,she-in my eyes at least-isn't this true good person or shouldn't be considered one.because using an alternative personality doesn't mean its not you,its even worse because then its a huge lie!
i'm trying not to favor or dislike anyone but i appreciate shen teh's kindness but i hate the fact that she isn't truely kind!it bothers me.so very much.but i hated that all the moochers (number 1!) then could not even help wang when he really needed it(number 2!).wang is that true kindness because he just lives such a humble life style.he loses his hand he has nothing!and he doesn't have much to begin with!i feel so bad for him,because it isn't fair that shen teh is given this opportunity and is kind but secretly evil and mean but the true kindness the one that deserves all the wealth and help that sheh teh got,is just tossed aside by everyone and not cared for at all.its just not fair.
i guess in retrospect shen teh is giving back a bit to wang because she is going to lie so he can get compisated.but i feel like that isn't enough.now that i understand this play more i feel like i'm enjoying it a bit more.
but i have a question about the music part or the poems that everyone says.are they songs that were put to music and sang or were they said as poems,even though someof them don't really rhyme completely?like how were they presented in the performance?
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finally!!!!!!i felt RIGHT in movement class.its a miracle!!!!just after lacey had us sit for 10 minutes i felt my senses like work around me.and just be relaxed and i really just said in the begining today is a fun day,i have to just relax and do it and have fun with it!and i had such an amazing day in class.i just rolled with it.i let it out and i laughed when i wanted to,even when we had to use the choreography i said at one point that i haven't done anything in a while but i then thought,i didn't feel the need to do anything i just moved when i felt like moving and when i just wanted to not when i said i should move this way now.i didn't care if i was doing anything right i just felt it work.AHHHH!!!!!!!i can't wait for tomorrow.
i guess its brecht's way of differentiating between sheh ten's goodness and kindness and the rest of the "normal" world's mentalities,that they come first.so brecht pushes the ruder things people do to extremes and in some cases not even to extremes,just to show that good people like true good people are hard to come by.AND because someone said that shen teh is the cousin too,she-in my eyes at least-isn't this true good person or shouldn't be considered one.because using an alternative personality doesn't mean its not you,its even worse because then its a huge lie!
i'm trying not to favor or dislike anyone but i appreciate shen teh's kindness but i hate the fact that she isn't truely kind!it bothers me.so very much.but i hated that all the moochers (number 1!) then could not even help wang when he really needed it(number 2!).wang is that true kindness because he just lives such a humble life style.he loses his hand he has nothing!and he doesn't have much to begin with!i feel so bad for him,because it isn't fair that shen teh is given this opportunity and is kind but secretly evil and mean but the true kindness the one that deserves all the wealth and help that sheh teh got,is just tossed aside by everyone and not cared for at all.its just not fair.
i guess in retrospect shen teh is giving back a bit to wang because she is going to lie so he can get compisated.but i feel like that isn't enough.now that i understand this play more i feel like i'm enjoying it a bit more.
but i have a question about the music part or the poems that everyone says.are they songs that were put to music and sang or were they said as poems,even though someof them don't really rhyme completely?like how were they presented in the performance?
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finally!!!!!!i felt RIGHT in movement class.its a miracle!!!!just after lacey had us sit for 10 minutes i felt my senses like work around me.and just be relaxed and i really just said in the begining today is a fun day,i have to just relax and do it and have fun with it!and i had such an amazing day in class.i just rolled with it.i let it out and i laughed when i wanted to,even when we had to use the choreography i said at one point that i haven't done anything in a while but i then thought,i didn't feel the need to do anything i just moved when i felt like moving and when i just wanted to not when i said i should move this way now.i didn't care if i was doing anything right i just felt it work.AHHHH!!!!!!!i can't wait for tomorrow.
Monday, January 11, 2010
participation.
so no blog today because i sent you my soc.
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today i was prepared and took good notes.i also participated in our discussion and i asked close to one million questions about good person.which is being clarified,but i'm annoyied that i still am unable to pick up on these things!roar.but i'm excited for movement tomorrow.maybe i'll start to "get" movement in a different style.
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today i was prepared and took good notes.i also participated in our discussion and i asked close to one million questions about good person.which is being clarified,but i'm annoyied that i still am unable to pick up on these things!roar.but i'm excited for movement tomorrow.maybe i'll start to "get" movement in a different style.
Thursday, January 7, 2010
good person day 4 and 5
i'm getting confused about the time and place of the play now.i know it takes place in china.but the time is different.the people still believe in gods but there are "aeroplanes"?so when would this be taking place?
the cousin is creeping me out.mr shui ta is now controlling everything.he took over her buisness and now he's planning her marriage?with out even discussing it with her?because it is not at all fair that he can just appear out of no where and control shen teh.
and speaking of shen teh where is she?she just poofed away,then comes back in the park and shes getting married.like where is this story going????then this man sun comes into the story and him and shen teh are talking in the park for a bit.i think they're talking about him trying to comite suicide?i'm not completely sure.this whole play is very confusing.i feel like there are 2-3 different stories happening at the same time but i dont understand any of them.shen teh's story,shui ta's story and wang's minor story.and what ever happened to the gods?are they ever going to come back?are these stories ever going to like connect together?i'm just so confused about the theme,the purpose,the plot.i'm just confused!
what i do get is brecht's writing style a little bit more but thats only because you explained it and even then its not eintirely clear.evil person of szechwan is more i like it.
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so in the park shen teh and sun were talking about him killing himself.and shen teh is getting married for money.wang is back!as are the gods.
another question i have is how are the scenesbroken up?some are scenes and then there are interludes and breaks in between.that aren't scenes,but i'm not sure what they are?
well the gods are really concerned about shen teh,they have to know if she's being "good" i guess.but then wang is giving them false information because he told them things her cousin did not shen teh so she'll get in trouble for her cousin's rudeness.but according to her he's not coming back so maybe she can have her buisnesswithout her stupid cousin.
and why do some of the charatcers like break out into songs or these poem things?its not just normal dialogue,its like a break away from the dialogue.so i'm confused as to what that would be called??
i still dont like these gods.they just seem weird.like different.they dont seem like normal gods.they seem too concerned with the common people,and i want to know why!!!!i'm still confused as hell.
pg-100
so today was misner.and i did try!i really did.and i'm trying to get repitition because i was horrible in the begining of the year.but i worked at it today.plus i had my blacks today and i blogged for today and yesterday.
the cousin is creeping me out.mr shui ta is now controlling everything.he took over her buisness and now he's planning her marriage?with out even discussing it with her?because it is not at all fair that he can just appear out of no where and control shen teh.
and speaking of shen teh where is she?she just poofed away,then comes back in the park and shes getting married.like where is this story going????then this man sun comes into the story and him and shen teh are talking in the park for a bit.i think they're talking about him trying to comite suicide?i'm not completely sure.this whole play is very confusing.i feel like there are 2-3 different stories happening at the same time but i dont understand any of them.shen teh's story,shui ta's story and wang's minor story.and what ever happened to the gods?are they ever going to come back?are these stories ever going to like connect together?i'm just so confused about the theme,the purpose,the plot.i'm just confused!
what i do get is brecht's writing style a little bit more but thats only because you explained it and even then its not eintirely clear.evil person of szechwan is more i like it.
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so in the park shen teh and sun were talking about him killing himself.and shen teh is getting married for money.wang is back!as are the gods.
another question i have is how are the scenesbroken up?some are scenes and then there are interludes and breaks in between.that aren't scenes,but i'm not sure what they are?
well the gods are really concerned about shen teh,they have to know if she's being "good" i guess.but then wang is giving them false information because he told them things her cousin did not shen teh so she'll get in trouble for her cousin's rudeness.but according to her he's not coming back so maybe she can have her buisnesswithout her stupid cousin.
and why do some of the charatcers like break out into songs or these poem things?its not just normal dialogue,its like a break away from the dialogue.so i'm confused as to what that would be called??
i still dont like these gods.they just seem weird.like different.they dont seem like normal gods.they seem too concerned with the common people,and i want to know why!!!!i'm still confused as hell.
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so today was misner.and i did try!i really did.and i'm trying to get repitition because i was horrible in the begining of the year.but i worked at it today.plus i had my blacks today and i blogged for today and yesterday.
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
participation
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today began with my little talk about me being hard on myself.i know its not good,but ive done it forever.so i really have to work on that.but today i hung lights which is always fun.plus i got to bring down the electrics.i helped with the plugging in of the lights.and thank god for matt,because we freshman probably annoyied the hell out of him with our questions.plus i ran back and forth to the cage so much,its crazy.
today began with my little talk about me being hard on myself.i know its not good,but ive done it forever.so i really have to work on that.but today i hung lights which is always fun.plus i got to bring down the electrics.i helped with the plugging in of the lights.and thank god for matt,because we freshman probably annoyied the hell out of him with our questions.plus i ran back and forth to the cage so much,its crazy.
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
good person day 3
so the cousin is real.because he just came for a visit.but he said that shen teh has been detained?so she got arrested?for what?i thoguht she'd get in trouble for lying about her cousin,but her cousin is real!so what did she do to get arrested?
but the family was confused about the cousin.so was he a lie to them,but shen teh had something up her sleave?so what is the cousin going to do with the shop because doesnt it belong to shen teh?
but i understand the anit-capitalism brecht has in this play now.like when shen teh got all of her money for the shop,she was almost attacked because of her sudden wealth,by beggers and people who needed a place to stay,and her shop was ruined from the start because alot of money fell inot a kind person's hands and while she had good intentions she was used by people and that hurt her.then when she has no more money,because she helped people,they will continue to ask for help and soon will wear her down,then beg for more,and become disappointed when there is no one help to be given.so the point he's trying to make i think is that money even in a good person's hands will hurt someone in the end.
and i feel like the cousin shui ta is saying everything shen teh couldn't say before.and i feel like the reason might be because he's a man and she isn't.when sheh teh said something no one would take her seriously,but when shui ta says something its ok.and he means business,i mean really???????
oh and wang came back for a bit.i'm still thinking about what his part ion this play is because so far it sems kind of centered around sheh teh and her "drama" you could say.
pg-100
today i participated in our theatre turned history turned politics turned epic theatre discussion.and i took notes on this play which i desperatly needed.i still dont completely get it but i'm trying and i'm hoping i will kinda get it once i finish.plus i read and blogged today.
but the family was confused about the cousin.so was he a lie to them,but shen teh had something up her sleave?so what is the cousin going to do with the shop because doesnt it belong to shen teh?
but i understand the anit-capitalism brecht has in this play now.like when shen teh got all of her money for the shop,she was almost attacked because of her sudden wealth,by beggers and people who needed a place to stay,and her shop was ruined from the start because alot of money fell inot a kind person's hands and while she had good intentions she was used by people and that hurt her.then when she has no more money,because she helped people,they will continue to ask for help and soon will wear her down,then beg for more,and become disappointed when there is no one help to be given.so the point he's trying to make i think is that money even in a good person's hands will hurt someone in the end.
and i feel like the cousin shui ta is saying everything shen teh couldn't say before.and i feel like the reason might be because he's a man and she isn't.when sheh teh said something no one would take her seriously,but when shui ta says something its ok.and he means business,i mean really???????
oh and wang came back for a bit.i'm still thinking about what his part ion this play is because so far it sems kind of centered around sheh teh and her "drama" you could say.
pg-100
today i participated in our theatre turned history turned politics turned epic theatre discussion.and i took notes on this play which i desperatly needed.i still dont completely get it but i'm trying and i'm hoping i will kinda get it once i finish.plus i read and blogged today.
Monday, January 4, 2010
getting back into the swing of things...
good person of szechwan day 2.
so i'm confused because this play had a main character,and then it switched to shen teh.what happened to wang from before?is he going to come back or was he just in the begining?
well shen teh opened a shop thanks to the gods and their donation.but then her old landlords came and asked for a room.along with a begger man and mrs.shin.the man asked for cigarettes and shen teh gave then to him willingly.and mrs.shin sold shen teh her old shop and she's kind of bitter about it now.shen teh gives her rice and is kind to her but mrs.shin is just mad about her situation and i don't think thats fair to shen teh.shen teh gives her house to alot of people.a couple and their nephew.plus an aunt of theirs,a grandpa,cousins,just evryone in their family is staying in the very small shop and shen teh is kind enough to let them all stay for free.
and whos this cousin everyone's refering to?but shen teh just seems really hesitant about letting him foot the bill for her shop.so is he real at all?or is the family just lying for shen teh's sake?but isn't that going to get shen teh in to more trouble than before?so then she will looose her shop.and be poor again and have to be a prostitute again for money.so shen teh's kinda screwed untill she can pay off all the money for the shop.then she's going to have to lie more and then she's going to be in so much trouble.then the gods will probably have to see her again and she'll get punished i guess?i'm still really confused about this play.
but i do want to talk about movement today.i feel so awkward in movement class and i know it shows.i do have alot of inhabitions,and i'm afraid that i cant get over them.becuase even when i try to just sayscrew it michelle and just focus and have fun and do it!i can't.i'm just so afraid of looking like an ass i guess.
i also think that i'm not doing anything right in movement!i mean i feel like everyone else gets it and does it right and i'm just a mess.but then i start thinking how were not supposed to worry about everyone else.but its hard.i'm one of the most self consious people,and feeling behind is making me feel like i shouldn't be an actor!but then i think i'm only a freshman and i don't really know what i'm doing.so i'm just very confused.and i'm pretty sure it was obvious that i was over thinking so i'm sorry that my head wasn't completly in the class today.
so i'm going to try to just relax about it.its only the second marking period and i definatly can't expect to be perfect yet,or ever really.but i can't be great and get absolutely everything the first time.so i just have to REALLY try to get over my inhabitions.and just do it.
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today even though i'll admit i wasn't completly into the extersize,i did try and there were moments that i felt like something was clicking.so i'm really trying to work on everything.i had my blacks today and i read and wrote my blog.so i deserve a 100.
so i'm confused because this play had a main character,and then it switched to shen teh.what happened to wang from before?is he going to come back or was he just in the begining?
well shen teh opened a shop thanks to the gods and their donation.but then her old landlords came and asked for a room.along with a begger man and mrs.shin.the man asked for cigarettes and shen teh gave then to him willingly.and mrs.shin sold shen teh her old shop and she's kind of bitter about it now.shen teh gives her rice and is kind to her but mrs.shin is just mad about her situation and i don't think thats fair to shen teh.shen teh gives her house to alot of people.a couple and their nephew.plus an aunt of theirs,a grandpa,cousins,just evryone in their family is staying in the very small shop and shen teh is kind enough to let them all stay for free.
and whos this cousin everyone's refering to?but shen teh just seems really hesitant about letting him foot the bill for her shop.so is he real at all?or is the family just lying for shen teh's sake?but isn't that going to get shen teh in to more trouble than before?so then she will looose her shop.and be poor again and have to be a prostitute again for money.so shen teh's kinda screwed untill she can pay off all the money for the shop.then she's going to have to lie more and then she's going to be in so much trouble.then the gods will probably have to see her again and she'll get punished i guess?i'm still really confused about this play.
but i do want to talk about movement today.i feel so awkward in movement class and i know it shows.i do have alot of inhabitions,and i'm afraid that i cant get over them.becuase even when i try to just sayscrew it michelle and just focus and have fun and do it!i can't.i'm just so afraid of looking like an ass i guess.
i also think that i'm not doing anything right in movement!i mean i feel like everyone else gets it and does it right and i'm just a mess.but then i start thinking how were not supposed to worry about everyone else.but its hard.i'm one of the most self consious people,and feeling behind is making me feel like i shouldn't be an actor!but then i think i'm only a freshman and i don't really know what i'm doing.so i'm just very confused.and i'm pretty sure it was obvious that i was over thinking so i'm sorry that my head wasn't completly in the class today.
so i'm going to try to just relax about it.its only the second marking period and i definatly can't expect to be perfect yet,or ever really.but i can't be great and get absolutely everything the first time.so i just have to REALLY try to get over my inhabitions.and just do it.
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today even though i'll admit i wasn't completly into the extersize,i did try and there were moments that i felt like something was clicking.so i'm really trying to work on everything.i had my blacks today and i read and wrote my blog.so i deserve a 100.
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