so no more reading.now we go into acting experiences.
so i did my monologue today.and i wanted to try something different.the first line of my monologue has always felt odd with me.anytime it always feels off or there was a better way to start off my monologue.so i've been thinking about other ways to deliver it.
today,instead of starting off calm and building my anger up,i wanted to try just being pissed,and i wanted to see if it would lead anywhere else besides how its been going.i guess my choice kind of failed,because everyone said i should have built it up more or reined in my emotions more.and i agree, and now its just another path to try.maybe being calm through out might help me get a better hold on my character or my emotions with it.
hopnestly once i made my choice it seemed a little weird and unnatural and i didnt regret it but it just didnt work out.and all i really wanted was feedback on my chance.
so i guess today was one of my low days with my monologue.i'm happy with my progress and i'm happy that i'm thinking about my options to work on it.so one bad run is not the end of the world.now i just know that one idea didnt work.a million more ways to go!
and what do you think about a different monologue for me?i like mine,yes,but some people have said that its not the greatest of fits and that i dont have the power toward the end that "they" think i should.that i'm a bit more passive then i should be.and i'm just now thinking about it and i guess some doubt is creeping in to my mind...i'm just unsure.and regardless if i keep my monologue or not,i kind of want to look into new material i guess.i mean i know i'm a freshman,but i want to prepare more stuff.so what would be your opinion on that?
pg-100
so today i tried something new with my monologue.i'm expanding on my monologue i guess.plus i did offer to go today.so i deserve a 100 for having balls today.
Monday, February 1, 2010
Friday, January 22, 2010
participation
pg-100
today.i did my monologue again.i think it went well.i agree when you said that it was looser,because i could feel it.it felt better that way.now i just have to work on it more.and study for the lovely final.yay.
today.i did my monologue again.i think it went well.i agree when you said that it was looser,because i could feel it.it felt better that way.now i just have to work on it more.and study for the lovely final.yay.
Thursday, January 21, 2010
good person
i finally read the backround on the play.and i think that now i was thinking way too much and that i understand the play,i just confused myself.
when shen teh is pregnant with sun's baby,while sun has left her.i was confused at first and thought she already had the child,but i then caught on that no,shen teh was just with another child,it wasn't her own.BUT that child saw her change from shen teh into shui ta.so i'm curious how that will come into the story later on.
its interesting how shen teh said she wouldn't use the check that the barber gave her,but she ends up using it anyway for way more money than she needs.shui ta then outts alot of people to work for shen teh for food.so i feel like shen teh is finally getting a bit of buisness smarts and is seeing that she has to work for herself a little bit.
but she does redem herself because she offers to help wang with his hand.but she ends up going back on her redemtion when she becomes shui ta,who fog=rgets basically about wang's hand.
what i don't get is the whole buisness aspect of the play.like how does shen teh get the tobacco for the couple?like they ask her to hold it?but then how do they get it in the first place?and was she going to give wang her left over tobacco to pay for his hand?but i thought she was going to sell that to pay off her debts?
i think that people are starting to catch on to shen teh and shui ta's changing.because its always one leaves town while the other stays in town.one is controlling the shop one isn't.its back and forth with them.and pretty soon all the people will catch on how even their personalities are back and forth.one is always nice the other is strict and fair.
pg-100
so today i got to do my monologue!i was really nervous after i finished.i kind of just said to myself to spit out the slate so i just got it over with before my nerves got the better of me.then i just let the monologue come out.i'm trying to lisssssssten to my ssss's and my ttttttt's now.i don't think it's just the braces.i think it's always been the way i've talked so that should be a fun habbit to break.
when shen teh is pregnant with sun's baby,while sun has left her.i was confused at first and thought she already had the child,but i then caught on that no,shen teh was just with another child,it wasn't her own.BUT that child saw her change from shen teh into shui ta.so i'm curious how that will come into the story later on.
its interesting how shen teh said she wouldn't use the check that the barber gave her,but she ends up using it anyway for way more money than she needs.shui ta then outts alot of people to work for shen teh for food.so i feel like shen teh is finally getting a bit of buisness smarts and is seeing that she has to work for herself a little bit.
but she does redem herself because she offers to help wang with his hand.but she ends up going back on her redemtion when she becomes shui ta,who fog=rgets basically about wang's hand.
what i don't get is the whole buisness aspect of the play.like how does shen teh get the tobacco for the couple?like they ask her to hold it?but then how do they get it in the first place?and was she going to give wang her left over tobacco to pay for his hand?but i thought she was going to sell that to pay off her debts?
i think that people are starting to catch on to shen teh and shui ta's changing.because its always one leaves town while the other stays in town.one is controlling the shop one isn't.its back and forth with them.and pretty soon all the people will catch on how even their personalities are back and forth.one is always nice the other is strict and fair.
pg-100
so today i got to do my monologue!i was really nervous after i finished.i kind of just said to myself to spit out the slate so i just got it over with before my nerves got the better of me.then i just let the monologue come out.i'm trying to lisssssssten to my ssss's and my ttttttt's now.i don't think it's just the braces.i think it's always been the way i've talked so that should be a fun habbit to break.
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
good person for tuesday and wednesday.
tuesday.
so sun and shen teh are officially getting married.i feel like shen teh has finally given up on herself.like she no longer has her own like thoughts.i feel like sun is so over powering and controlling and that he will stop her from being her good self.
because i've been thinking about what we've been talking about.and i guess i see how shen teh is still trying to be good.and that shui ta isn't the bad guy i've been thinking of him as.he is just himself i'd like to say.he's not bad he just does what he feels is right.shen teh does the same.she just has a general good instinct.
everyone i feel like isn't good or bad anymore,but its just follows their gut insticts.like people just have better insticts and are naturally nicer or kinder.they do what they can.
sun just annoys me.he's so controlling and rude.and shen teh deserves more.she can do better.i don't understand why, even when she knows how he truely feels,she still hopes for the good to come out in him.she wants to repay the old couple and be kind, but he just say no don't even try its not important,we'll just leave and move on with my life and my career.how does she not leave him and even try to put up with that???
i don't know how many times we've gone over the theme and meaning behind it but i can't understand this play at all.i'm trying to finish this play and figure it out on my own but i'm seriously lost.and i have no idea what i'm missing anymore.
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wednesday.
so a bit of a crack i guess at the theme of the play here.wang talks to the gods about the least useful being the most fortunate.so the opposite being someone who is useful to everyone and helps everyone, like shen teh,is the least fortunate.she's so helpful and caring,but she's always hurt.she's going to be hurt by sun.i feel like he doesnt really care about her. he's just using her as a way to get to where he needs to be and that so unfair!but then i can also be said that shen teh cant always count on other people's good deeds.but when she doesn't trust people it's kind of going against what she does already,be nice and kind and caring.
but now what for shen teh?she has to give up her shop,she won't take any help,suns gone.what else does she have to do?she has to pay back the elderly couple and her rent.even when she's offered monay,she refuses it out of kindness or stupidity or whatever reason she has.
i want to just grab her and shake her and scream at her to do something!i just don't know how she can still try to defend sun and she tries to still pay back her debts.she just can't give up.
all the money too.wow.it really is like the root of all their problems.everyone is poor and miserable.they all have to borrow and pay back money.and they all need money but no one has any so you really start to see what happens to a group of poor people who get large sums of money.they just take it and destroy it.
pg-100
so today we worked on monologues a little bit.and we discussed audition processes.as much as i'd like to say i'm ready for it.i'm not.but i'm really going to work hard on my monolgues,because i know i'm going to be a mess with it.i'm so scared to try it again.but we'll see what happens.
so sun and shen teh are officially getting married.i feel like shen teh has finally given up on herself.like she no longer has her own like thoughts.i feel like sun is so over powering and controlling and that he will stop her from being her good self.
because i've been thinking about what we've been talking about.and i guess i see how shen teh is still trying to be good.and that shui ta isn't the bad guy i've been thinking of him as.he is just himself i'd like to say.he's not bad he just does what he feels is right.shen teh does the same.she just has a general good instinct.
everyone i feel like isn't good or bad anymore,but its just follows their gut insticts.like people just have better insticts and are naturally nicer or kinder.they do what they can.
sun just annoys me.he's so controlling and rude.and shen teh deserves more.she can do better.i don't understand why, even when she knows how he truely feels,she still hopes for the good to come out in him.she wants to repay the old couple and be kind, but he just say no don't even try its not important,we'll just leave and move on with my life and my career.how does she not leave him and even try to put up with that???
i don't know how many times we've gone over the theme and meaning behind it but i can't understand this play at all.i'm trying to finish this play and figure it out on my own but i'm seriously lost.and i have no idea what i'm missing anymore.
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wednesday.
so a bit of a crack i guess at the theme of the play here.wang talks to the gods about the least useful being the most fortunate.so the opposite being someone who is useful to everyone and helps everyone, like shen teh,is the least fortunate.she's so helpful and caring,but she's always hurt.she's going to be hurt by sun.i feel like he doesnt really care about her. he's just using her as a way to get to where he needs to be and that so unfair!but then i can also be said that shen teh cant always count on other people's good deeds.but when she doesn't trust people it's kind of going against what she does already,be nice and kind and caring.
but now what for shen teh?she has to give up her shop,she won't take any help,suns gone.what else does she have to do?she has to pay back the elderly couple and her rent.even when she's offered monay,she refuses it out of kindness or stupidity or whatever reason she has.
i want to just grab her and shake her and scream at her to do something!i just don't know how she can still try to defend sun and she tries to still pay back her debts.she just can't give up.
all the money too.wow.it really is like the root of all their problems.everyone is poor and miserable.they all have to borrow and pay back money.and they all need money but no one has any so you really start to see what happens to a group of poor people who get large sums of money.they just take it and destroy it.
pg-100
so today we worked on monologues a little bit.and we discussed audition processes.as much as i'd like to say i'm ready for it.i'm not.but i'm really going to work hard on my monolgues,because i know i'm going to be a mess with it.i'm so scared to try it again.but we'll see what happens.
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
participation
pg-100
so today we talked more about good person.and to me it seems like yet another play is just flying over my head.i feel like i'm getting it from a wrong angle.its weird.but i did take very good notes.and i participated in the class descusion about dadaism.
so today we talked more about good person.and to me it seems like yet another play is just flying over my head.i feel like i'm getting it from a wrong angle.its weird.but i did take very good notes.and i participated in the class descusion about dadaism.
Friday, January 15, 2010
participation
pg-100
today we got taught by mr.baker/teacher dan.go critical writing!it helped a lot.i'm really going to work with the soc or vomit method when working.in class i only asked a million questions.and they were all confusing as hell.i'm sure i annoyied the crap out of dan.but today did help.so hopefully my reviews improve somehow.
today we got taught by mr.baker/teacher dan.go critical writing!it helped a lot.i'm really going to work with the soc or vomit method when working.in class i only asked a million questions.and they were all confusing as hell.i'm sure i annoyied the crap out of dan.but today did help.so hopefully my reviews improve somehow.
Thursday, January 14, 2010
good person for wednesday and thursday
wednesday's post.
so now i know that shen teh and shui ta are the same person,from the text though! i think she knows that she's not the angel the gods believe anymore.she knows that making up shui ta was the wrong thing to do,but now she's stuck and has to try to be the best she can as shen teh,and i think she's even trying to be a better shui ta too.because from what i read when shui ta talks to sun about the 200 dollars he seems to have a little less agressive personality and more of the nice shen teh.but i think that because shen teh can be mean like that, that would be her real thoughts.its like what everyone wishes they could have someone to be able to speak their real thoughts without any reprocusions.shen teh is living the dream!
i'm just trying to like contimplate the "good and bad"-ness of shen teh and shui ta and everyone else.i feel that all the other characters besides sun really-because he's marring just for money when he's able to make money,and is a complete ass basically about it!he thinks of shen teh as a money machine,just his own little atm,because she's a successful but she trusts in people's character which is a huge mistake.but all the other characters are good because they're not perfect but they admit it and they know that about themselves.instead of lying and putting on a mask so they can look happy and perfect they're themselves.and they accept that they're not perfect.shen teh i think is just mean,evil,and stupid underneath everything but she's created the "shen teh character" not the shui ta character she just pushed all her bad attributes into a man as an alternative identity.
so could that be sextus in a way?like brecht is saying that women can't or shouldn't speak their mind and only men can and should?because thats not at all true.its like the same idea that you were telling us about disney and how most villans are women in power.just reversed roles and in a weird perspective.
brecht why are you making me think so much??????
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thrusday's post.
ah!i'm so mad at shen teh.she's so stupid!she gave up a life of like having her shop,getting married to a stable man who DIDN'T want to just take her for her money.but gave it up for someone who she met once and just fell in love with like that!she knows what he wants to do,so why does she choose to ignore it!she's better than that like really.she can have a better life by herself or something other than someone who just wants her money,then wants her to give up her life so he can move on with his dream,but what about what she wants to do?and she's a hiderance to sun!he would just leave her while he goes to flight school.
shen teh knows that he wants to do this,and she tries to leave and makes arrangements to marry someone else,but she just drops him like a fly.she's being playied!how is that smart?i know she's trying to give everyone a chance and trying to let everyone have a chance to be good,but she can't help everyone thats just impossible.
he's not a good person.but he knows it!he knows that he can toy with shen teh and that she'll come crawling back.he can just act good for a moment and shen teh will come running back in hope that he's good.that's when having hope and hoping for everyone's humanity to be like yours(or in her case her ideal humanity)just becomes useless,and you can't help everyone.
i feel bad for mr.shu fu because he just lost his fiance as quickly as he got her.but its a pinch of karma there because he injured wang so he shouldn't get anything because of that cruelty.
i like wang.he seems like the only real character,he is who he says he is.and he knows how people work.he's the only one who is truely good because he tries to be and accepts when he can't be.so go wang!
pg-100
today we had chi ti with jessica.which was fun.i wish we could have learned more.because i tried it once i got home and it just felt really cool.the acting games were interesting,and hard at the same time.though i'm wishing i asked how they can be used in acting.how would the soilder,guard,knight game be used just like group mind and quick thinking?i'm really not sure.and i asked a question about college.so that clariffied alot.but i wished i asked sooner.
so now i know that shen teh and shui ta are the same person,from the text though! i think she knows that she's not the angel the gods believe anymore.she knows that making up shui ta was the wrong thing to do,but now she's stuck and has to try to be the best she can as shen teh,and i think she's even trying to be a better shui ta too.because from what i read when shui ta talks to sun about the 200 dollars he seems to have a little less agressive personality and more of the nice shen teh.but i think that because shen teh can be mean like that, that would be her real thoughts.its like what everyone wishes they could have someone to be able to speak their real thoughts without any reprocusions.shen teh is living the dream!
i'm just trying to like contimplate the "good and bad"-ness of shen teh and shui ta and everyone else.i feel that all the other characters besides sun really-because he's marring just for money when he's able to make money,and is a complete ass basically about it!he thinks of shen teh as a money machine,just his own little atm,because she's a successful but she trusts in people's character which is a huge mistake.but all the other characters are good because they're not perfect but they admit it and they know that about themselves.instead of lying and putting on a mask so they can look happy and perfect they're themselves.and they accept that they're not perfect.shen teh i think is just mean,evil,and stupid underneath everything but she's created the "shen teh character" not the shui ta character she just pushed all her bad attributes into a man as an alternative identity.
so could that be sextus in a way?like brecht is saying that women can't or shouldn't speak their mind and only men can and should?because thats not at all true.its like the same idea that you were telling us about disney and how most villans are women in power.just reversed roles and in a weird perspective.
brecht why are you making me think so much??????
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thrusday's post.
ah!i'm so mad at shen teh.she's so stupid!she gave up a life of like having her shop,getting married to a stable man who DIDN'T want to just take her for her money.but gave it up for someone who she met once and just fell in love with like that!she knows what he wants to do,so why does she choose to ignore it!she's better than that like really.she can have a better life by herself or something other than someone who just wants her money,then wants her to give up her life so he can move on with his dream,but what about what she wants to do?and she's a hiderance to sun!he would just leave her while he goes to flight school.
shen teh knows that he wants to do this,and she tries to leave and makes arrangements to marry someone else,but she just drops him like a fly.she's being playied!how is that smart?i know she's trying to give everyone a chance and trying to let everyone have a chance to be good,but she can't help everyone thats just impossible.
he's not a good person.but he knows it!he knows that he can toy with shen teh and that she'll come crawling back.he can just act good for a moment and shen teh will come running back in hope that he's good.that's when having hope and hoping for everyone's humanity to be like yours(or in her case her ideal humanity)just becomes useless,and you can't help everyone.
i feel bad for mr.shu fu because he just lost his fiance as quickly as he got her.but its a pinch of karma there because he injured wang so he shouldn't get anything because of that cruelty.
i like wang.he seems like the only real character,he is who he says he is.and he knows how people work.he's the only one who is truely good because he tries to be and accepts when he can't be.so go wang!
pg-100
today we had chi ti with jessica.which was fun.i wish we could have learned more.because i tried it once i got home and it just felt really cool.the acting games were interesting,and hard at the same time.though i'm wishing i asked how they can be used in acting.how would the soilder,guard,knight game be used just like group mind and quick thinking?i'm really not sure.and i asked a question about college.so that clariffied alot.but i wished i asked sooner.
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