monday’s post

so today, after a gtalk chat with our teacher,we had rehearsal for freshman showcase.

today margie and i finally got to run lines standing up, which helped a lot,because the lines “feel” better when there is action going on.

i also seriously have to work on my tactic sheets.because currently they are blank and i think they would help.along with my moment before,because today in rehearsal, emily had me enter through the dressing room door and while outside i was trying to get into as much character as i could by using my moment before,but i still felt myself grow into character during the run, so i guess i just need to really focus on my moment before.

i also really need to figure out my character’s body.matt pointed out to me today that i still look like a 15 year old.and an awkward one at that.so i need to think of that older looking stance.i know more how my character thinks than how she acts.

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today i think my rehearsal went pretty well.i got some notes to work on,and i’m so close to being off book after that whole break from rehearsing.plus i’m changing/adding to my given circumstances a lot, and i think thats some what good.

thursday’s post

so our first freshman showcase rehearsal in a long time.at first i feared for this showcase,loosing jessica and now arianna.but we will definatly make it work.

so today i realized i hate being an actor,because we all had a talk today about how actors shouldn’t give suggestions to our directors.but i always have ideas!so i have to keep my mouth shut.i’ll have to learn one day to just focus on myself.right now i really have to work on my character.

i tried to make my actors book today.i’m pretty sure i failed on that.the actors book it’s self,i understand.its the writing of it that i’m so frustrated over.i’m just not sure how to write it, my character bio especially.i don’t know if i’m writing about the right part of my character’s life or not, or writing about too much detail.i kinda just went with where ever my thoughts went.i think i know enough now to continue growing my character.because i wrote about my character a couple of times and this one i think fits the best.

one note i got today was that i have to basically bring my character back.and i need to think more about my character.most defiantly.and work on my action sheet.i feel so behind right now because everyone else seems to have their stuff together.

so much work to be done.

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today i came prepared and on time to class.plus i really tried hard to just be an actor today and not worry about everything else.i’m also really excited and nervous for the show.WAY more nervous.its crunch time and we’ve just started.time to work again.

wednesday’s participation

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so today we struck the set,and i am seriously surprised by how much we got done.obviously the seniors started off,but we powered through that set.defiantly deserve a 100 for awesome set de-constructing.

welcome back!

journaling begins again after so long.

well somethings have changed since last time.mainstage is done.most of my reading is done.and i started taking the bus again after about 4 weeks of not being on it.

so waiting for godot.finally started.it’s confusing to me.like extremely confusing.the plot is next to nothing,like there isn’t much change through out the whole play,they begin waiting and they end waiting. i mean lucky and pozzo come along, but then thats about it.

i’m also finding the characters kind of difficult,vladimir seems more focused on godot than estragon, luck is just strange,at first i wasn’t sure he was a person or not.and pozzo seems like a philosopher type.

so the whole play is mainly thematic to me,but the only theme is could really see was why wait for something that may never come? so i think i’m seriously missing like this whole play.

but i’m only in act one,so i’ll see how this wonderful reading goes.

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today we took our history final.which i’m personally not to happy with,simply because i don’t think i did too well.but still i did the 10 short answers as well as all 3 essays.so i deserve a 100 for today.

thursday’s post

well its now at the end of the play.so here’s the last bit.

willy and biff have come to a minor understanding.biff is going to leave and willy is going to go on with living with linda and work out his problems.biff i think, is trying to help his parents or at least his dad,so he can stop worrying about biff’s life.

then they both have a father-son bonding moment!willy realizes that biff doesn’t hate him for cheating and biff finally told his dad that he can’t be the business man that willy wants him to be.but that he’s just trying to live his life as happy as he can.willy’s realization causes him to re consider living.

but then ben comes back.ben is trying to tell willy to hurry up and that they have to go,so willy WAS trying to die,but now that he and biff are ok,he wants to stay and he kind of blows ben off.and linda is trying to get him to sleep and it will be all over.

but willy doesn’t go.willy goes out for a walk and gets confused and wanders out in to the street (i think)(this is what i’m gathering happens artistically based on what the stage directions say)where he gets hit by a car and dies.which is so sad because he and biff were finally ok!

and finally the last scene,the funeral.

willy-dead.

linda-is now empty and she’s really messed up i think because a)she never knew about the cheating and b) everything willy was worried over is finally ok.

biff-i thnk is just content about life after he and his father cleared everything up.and is now just morning and living.

happy-is going to end up just like his father as i predicted.biff will be ben and happy will be willy.there is no way around it,history will repeat it’s self.

wednesday’s post

willy comes back into the present,and he i think at first has a sort of epiphany,which i thought at first was a good epiphany.i though he was finally going to forgive biff for catching him and he was going to make a garden and live his life happily,and that would be it.

but when willy starts planting the seeds and biff realizes what he’s doing,biff freaks out and runs to his dad.willy is outside talking to ben,which i don’t think is a very good thing in this case.willy is talking about this $20,000 deal with ben.but how would ben be able to help him at all? ben’s dead,he’s only alive to willy in willy’s head.

but willy feels alot of regret about linda,because she’s gone thorugh alot and she’s always stood by him.

i was really confused at first about this whole part with ben and willy.then ben said policy, and it clicked that willy is planning on killing himself and giving the money to his family to live off of.

ben brings up a good point though.biff will see willy as a coward.how at this point in this life something has to happen.either he dies and he’s remembered as a coward and biff still hates him, or he goes on living and solves things with his son.

biff does try to help his father now.he comes and tries to talk to willy.and tell him how he feels and let willy know what he’s going to do with the rest of his life.but willy still thinks biff hates him for whats happened with his future.when biff is trying to tell him that its not his fault.

tuesday’s post

so we find out that biff and happy’s buisness plan has fallen though.that there is no way to work out this great scheme to get tons of money for the family.biff is really torn up about it.i’m sure he feels like he’s letting everyone down,and he’s afraid for his dad’s sanity.he knows this can tip him off and make him kinda go crazy,which it does.

willy starts freaking out and is in his own head,when biff was graduation and he found out that biff had failed math.this part is interesting and confusing,because happy and biff are in the present time trying to explain to willy what happened and trying to calm him down.while willy is way back in the past listening to the people around him there in his head and not biff and happy.

biff really tries to tell willy what is happening with him and how he feels and why he thinks he failed,but willy isn’t listening.willy’s dream was a long time ago to work hard and watch his sons be these poster children of success.now that biff has come to realise that he can’t do that,willy’s disappointed and is blaming biff and himself.

at the same time,we learn more about what has happened between willy and biff.willy had an affair when biff came to tell him about failiing math,and biff found out about the woman,and willy has thought biff hated him ever since,whether he does or not we don’t yet know.