six characters in search of an author day 1

so today i began reading six characters.

i get the idea of it.there is supposed to be a play/show begin put on with in the show.i think its funny how the author has one of his own novels being put on as a show,with in his show.its also humerous how he almost makes fun of himself.saying how"they were reduced to to producing plays by pirandello..but neither the actors or critics,nor the audiance are ever happy with his plays..."

i'm curious how the six characters look.in the stage directions they say the characters should have masks on.i don't understand why.to show that they are blank canvases?or to say they can be whatever character nessesary?but that would be un-true.becuase they state that they are characters.not actors.so they have a perminant face and expression?maybe its just to keep their situation or personalities or characters general,like they could be anyone.

i'm also really curious as to what will happen.what did these 6 characters go through?what will the "leading lady" do?will she steal the spotlight?will the whole play be them in rehersal?or will it be at real time,going minute by minute,rather than saying "the next day something else happened..."?and why do all the "characters" have such distinct looks and personalities and feelings?

we'll see what happens.

monologues!

1st monologue.
title:angry writing kills.
character name:megan

megan:anger takes over you when you write.when you write you might think things over.but when your angry,you don't think.thinking is the furthest thing on your mind.you curse,scream,your hand writing becomes sloppy,you become so focused on your writing,the world could be ending and you wouldn't know.

and then you get the cramp.that pain in your hand that won't go away.

now byt his point,your angrywriting has gotten so intense.all you know is the paper,your pen,and the words.so when you notice your hand,your so intent on writing you ignore it.and keep ignoring it,untill the pain has elevated to your breaking point.you throw down your pen and you try to relax your hand.finally by the time your hand feels better,you forgot what you were writing about in the first place.

2nd monologue
title:super mass of brain-ages and stuff.
charcater name:samantha

so writing can be hard.and painfull i guess.but what about thinking?thinking can be just as bad.my mind is a complete super mass of brain-ages.and stuff.its crazy!the teenage mind today is always a overcrowed place for evey moment of every day to replay until its over analized,then re-over analized.

sure adults have alot on their minds too,but they have a life time to perfect there over thinking.like a fileing cabinet.kids have a moments notice to get there thoughts in order!why?because society asks too much of us.you know?like we have to look happy and pretty for adults,or friends,peers,the opposite sex!plus and school work,chores,homwork,extra classes,that boy that sits next to you who runs around the track field with no shirt.(dreamy pause).its just enough to make you go mad!so writing clears your head of one thing,but what about the shirt you can't find,that you left under your bed,or that history report due,or the fact that gossip girl is on and your missing it to go to dance practice.and while your at it!you have to do all this with a smile on your face before someone calls you emo!but not too happy because then your weird!and tell your parents about the day they want to hear not the day you had!its just too much!i can't even breathe with out thinking!and by the way,do you think that boy who sits two seats down from me in science has a girlfriend?

third post.and its thursday!

now that i'm back up to date.i realised i have really big to do list.

1.monologue.
2.thesis
3.read 6 charaters in search of an author
4.keep better track of my blogging
5.remember not to do these for hours at a time.

i always pick the worst time to blog.always at night.when people are on facbook and i want to check it every 5 seconds but i can't because if i do it will get me off track.

besides books being drugs,facebook is too.

by then i realise that i still have to blog.so i come back and lose my train of thought.so i need to plan this better.

ok.reading for today.eclipse again.monday i'll being the next play,or friday.but its easier on monday to blog about it.eclipse is getting down to the wire.bella's freaking out.so edwards freaking out.bella has a stalker,so she freaks more.its just one problem on top of the next.its quite ointeresting.then jacob comes in to play with his werewolf-ness.so its just very funny.

what is 6 characters even about?i have to look that up.it sounds interesting.i'm excited.

pg-100

today,i did my realism.which i thought went well.i wasn't sure about the hair thing.that felt really natural.but i guess it was performance-y.and i guess i fed myself to the sharks when i did repatition.i was so confused!i thought i had it.then i guess i didn't.havi kept making me laugh i dont know why.and i kept responding.but i'll get better.just i dont think i want to practice with the seniors anymore.they scared me how good they were!like how do you repete that so much,and when can you change repeting?but i did understand the wall.the defensiveness.i'm really defensive.so i can toally see that.

wednesday!here at last!

it's wednesday!hooray!half way through the week!

i have nothing to write about again.

i want to continue my reading of hedda gabler.but i'm getting side tracked.

eclipse for instance.i'm getting re-hooked.twilight is like a drug for young girls like me i guess.i read it,obsessed over it.stopped once i finshed the last book the 3rd time.now that the movie is coming out.i relapsed.i thought i could live without twilight!but sadly no.i'm getting re-obsessed.

yes.books can be like drugs.

now i'm worring about monologues again.were going to write our own in my other class.which is scaring me.writing is definatly not one of my strong points unless i feel like super inspired.which doesn't happen often.

and i still have to write that other one for this class.which is going to be crap i'm sure.

oh monologues.how i ditest thee.oh well.

so back to reading.i have to pick up hedda gabler again.i'm going to start forgetting it.and i dropped one of my books.should i drop hedda and go on to our next play?i'm not sure.i definatly can't do both.maybe i'll pick hedda back up later on.

tuesday.the most pointless day of the week!

tuesday is here!

i wish it was wednesday!

yay!

so...

i have continued with my reading of eclipse.it getting to the point where bella gets kidnapped by her boyfriends adopted sister.

but i need to think about more important matters.i really need that thesis.

so i present michelle lane's random thesis thoughts!

nora's standing up to helmer:womens revolution!
nora,more than what you see.
nora!she stupid,odd,different,yet i think she's great!
nora's wearing the pants now helmer!

helmer-a master of dolls,untill they master you!
helmer;in it for love or the prize?
helmer,perfect for him.not for her.
helmer=mr.mom!change of life.

christine's motives.
krogstad's true feelings and the meaning behind his actions?
rank,admirer of a toy store,or a toy himself?
everyone's obsession with being perfect on the outside,what going on inside?

oviously these are not my real thesises(thesi?)just funny brain storming ideas.this thesis is going to scare the living crap out of me.because,i will mess it up.so badly.because what if there's a sorce i miss?that could have had a valuable point to make.then my whole thesis is blown apart by that one point i didn't cover.

i'm a lawyer at heart.but i feel un-prepared.

and now my computer is inserting an extra space when i press enter....grr.

tuesday is always such a wasteful day.its so pointless!you've just realised that the week has begun.monday's your day to wake up.tuesday your pilled apon with work you don't want because you were in a daze on monday.so now you play catch up.get into everything,with no transition.its like you have an alarm that was on snooze.and now it screams wake up!its time for tuesday!

and tuesday always goes so slow.it just drags.like your waiting for something.untill you realise nothing's there to look forward to.so your waiting for the next day to come and bring something to look forward to for real.

at least thats how i feel today.so as i write this in my little notbook.i say curse you tuesday.

curse you.

pg-100(note:now that i'm posting this on thursday,i know it won't be counted i just really like wrighting these,they keep me on track with what we did,when we did it.so if this ends up counting,thank you,if not.i'll just take the 75.)

tuesday!we wrote our goals today.which i did.and i drew a tree!it looked kinda cool.but i wish it was better.my goals were to find a cool nickname.get good grades(atleast a's and b's).and end this year on a happy note.i'm going to miss my old friends.and i might go crazy without them and be super confussed.but i really want this year to end up good.

we also wrote letters to our parents explaining our goals.i wrote one.it wasn't the best.but i know if my mom really wanted to know how to help i could tell her better live than in a letter.

we also saw our headshots!!!!i liked mine.it was ok.i was wondering if it was possible to get a copy of that.i wanted to show my other acting teacher/singing and dance teacher.even if its through an email or something.if not then its fine.

so thats why i deserve a 100 for tuesday!

participation,before my parents tell me to get off the computer.

pg-100.

today.i remembered my blacks.i did well with the sun salutations.i worked on those streches.the cobra one is really weird.

note to self-work on pose....

i participated in the movement exercise today.even though i messed up alot,i kept trying.there were times though,when i messed up the cycle.like i forgot one flex of the hand.

note to self-work on memory.

i'm excited/nervous for the realism tomorrow.i hate packing up my room though.because when i take stuff it looks less messy,then when i bring it all home i'm sad becuase its still a mess.i'm still thinking about my monologue of choice.i've inlisted my other acting teacher for second opinions too.plus she has some kinowledge of plays.at least more than i do, so hopefully that will widen my herizon.

so thats why i deserve a hundred!!!!

blehhhh.i'm so confused.

mondays.how i hate thee.

i wish it was sunday again.i need more sleep.

i have no idea what to write about.

lalalalalalalalalalalalalala.

i'm confussed about the whole reading.when we finish a play are we supposed to go on to the next one or do you want us to wait for the whole class?because i'm reading like 5 stories at once,and i want to figure out what to give up before we start the play.

i hated headshots today.i'm spo un-photogenic.i hate pictures.i look so bad in them.and i listened to what the seniors said and i tried,but i can never take good pictures.grrrr.

i strongly despise headshots.very strongly.

i started reading eclipse today.yes its one of the vampire books.but its the story.not the whole vampire-is-so-cute-and-oh-my-god-i-will-marry-him! thing.

along with that i'm still reading hedda gabler(i think thats how you spell it...i'm so bad with spelling)and sloppy firsts.and eclipse.but i still have to write that monlogue.which by the way will probably be a hot mess.and i have to start looking for a monologue.i'm so bad with picking them out.and memorizing.and auditions.

but i need to do this!suck it up and do it.

what do you feel about me taking a 10 minute monlouge, and cutting it down?bad idea?i think so.

pg-100.
so monday is here.monday is gone.we didn't do a whole lot today.but i read and wrote.i tried to stay quiet.i tried with the headshots.i really hope people don't just say they look good.i really need the honest truth with those.
i'm going to work on that monologue.finding one and writing one.i need to find like 20,try them all.and find a really good one.i'm going to do it.
today went well in general.i really want thursady to come.i want to do my realism!come on thursady!

but i guess that means i have to pack up my room again.

*sigh*=]