pygmalion day 3 i think...

so eliza's father returns!

why is higgins so weird to him?like he just talks in circles,like he imidiatly starts accusing mr.doolittle of sending his daughter,and plotting against him and wanting money.why is that?i feel like higgins does this to everyone,just talks to confuse the hell out of them.because oviously he's intelligent and he can talk circles around them,but why does he.i really dont get his additude toward everything.

i hate saying this over and over about every character but...

i feel like he thinks he's better than the doolittles so he chooses what he wants from them,and then confusses the hell out of them for no reason at all!like hes always in control because he can play off of their illiteracy.

but anyway...

we went over today in class why mr.doolittle would come to get eliza,basically it was a taboo for an umarried woman to be away from her parents,to be living by herself,and to even be living with a man who she is not married to,so i can inderstand why mr.doolittle wants to know whats happening,but i don't get why higgins wants to throw her out,he didnt even give doolittle a chance to explain fully,he just assumed and started being very rude about it.

but then doolittle!he wanted to sell/rent his daughter out to higgins.thats so cruel.i dont care about the time or how poor he is,that is cruel to a girl like eliza,she's beaten down as is by society,then her own father goes to sell her for only 5 pounds!i do understand where he's coming from,how he;s desperate for money,but i wish it wasn't for his daughter.thats my only issue with it.

but i love when eliza comes out and no one can reconize her.then mrs.pearce asks higgins not to flatter her,i find that funny,and she thinks she looks silly!its funny because higgins isn't the one you'd think would flatter her,i guess this is the begining of an underlining relationship between them,this would lead the audiance in that direction,but as we know,it never happens.

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today we honestly didn't do much in class.we discussed pygmalion for a bit,but there wasn't much to discuss at the time,because alot of people haven't started or their on act 2.but we did discuss and i participated in that.and i read and blogged today.

pygmalion.wednesdays post

wow!woooowww.wow.

what a little....

higgins is so mean.does he mean to be that rude and disrespectful?or is it sarcasm taken the wrong way,because those were some pretty rude things to say.

well in act two we are introduced to mrs.pearce who is a housemaid for higgins and offers to help eliza by letting her live there and really teach her the real side of society,i feel.because you can teach someone to be proper,but they will never know how to use it.its like learning a language,memorizing all this vocabulary,but never being taught how to speak a sentance of the language.it becomes completely useless.

so thank god for mrs pearce.

but back to higgins.to me he just seems like a not cruel,but uncarring man.like he's too good to care what people think of him.thats why he can afford to be mean to eliza.

i think eliza is like a science experiment to higgins.higgins doesn't care for her feelings or what happens to her emotionally,just the end result,what happens on the outside.

i hope that will change.

a few questions...
1.why does eliza constanly say "ah-oh-ah" does she actaully say that or is it her crying?
2.can higgins just force eliza onto mrs.pearce like that?he basically said adopt her take care of her,she's your problem now.
3.does higgins mean what he says about eliza,or is it just cruel sarcastic jokes?

participation for wednesday

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today i went into the orchestra pit for the first time.very exciting there.i helped lift the macenite(spelling..)moved lights around at some point.and i also helped lay down the macenite on the stage with john,sisqo,kp,emily jr.,and margie.it was a very fun day.

pygmalion day 2

i really want to learn how to speek like the eliza now.i totally forgot what you called it in class,but i really want to learn.

so.what i read is basically what we went over in class,pickering and higgins leave eliza at the church where she has her money from higgins and she takes her cab away.

then i moved on to act 2!

higgins does seem really interesting.his character discription basically proved that.he's intelligent and curious,but to me he seems like an outspoken scientist.caring about the science and the facts but with a complete disregard of people and feelings.with a sarcastic edge.

but he does seem like a bit of a jerk,its almost funny what he says (in a cruel way...but still.)but to a pesron it seems degrading.

but i love eliza's spunky additude,she gets completely turned away and laughed at by higgins then goes back to him with a happy go lucky,top notch kind of additude.its really different to see in such a low person,usually they seem sad and down on their luck,but she's really different.she even talks back to the men,saying if you can't treat me with respect,why should i give you any?i love her already.

so she goes to see higgins,makes her offer,and gets denied at first.they laugh and make fun of her,then pickering decides to actually help the eliza get her lessons.

so this should be interesting.i think if either of the men decide to hit on eliza or flatter her or anything,she'd block them out,because i feel like she's focused on what she wants to do with her life.and she would let anything get in her way,even one sarcastic annoying teacher and his student.

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today i was prepared with my norton,being the only nerd to have it in class.i took my notes for today about the independent theatre.which i really love,i think its really cool for the younger artists to stand up like that,like secret theatre hippies.

pygmalion day 1

so we begin with pygmalion.and it totally just clicked that the stupid disney movie "confessions of a teenage drama queen" has a play going on within the movie,that;s supposed to be a modern day version of pygmalion.

well disney lets ee how you did.i'm sure it will be crappy.

i love the realistic discription of the flower girl on the second page.its just so plain,that it shows you exactly what shaw would want you to see.as apposed to other writers who might leave it up to the imagination.

plus i love the clear voice/dialect difference.clearly the flower girl is wayyyy less educated and has grown up without that proper speech teachingsshe's just really hard to understand.

but what exactly happened to the girl?one foot note says she was driven to prostitution?and that they'll take away her character?what does that mean?

there are alot of footnotes.the speech is so different.its like broken english with more parts...its hard to explain.but i really like it.its just new,its not really hard to understand it just takes a couple of tries to understand then it clicks really easily.

and whats the big deal about aking down her words?is that what they used to do or something?like a statement on the street?so thats how they could arrest them,if they say such and such or do such and such,the "tec" would take them away?but then why would some random person be taking notes?

what i really want to know is what this girl has to do with anything.

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my name's michelle and i have no apologies.i was really not looking forwarcd to go today,not that i was afraid,but more of it seemed uncomfertable to be sitting and moving and screaming.i don't have any idea why but the activity just seemed really uncomfertable,even when i tried it,i just let everything go i still felt really off balance or something...its hard to explain.mirroring was hard too,i'm so bad at mirrors but i tried.i definatly tried today and just didn't care what happened.so thats why i deserve a 100,i let it go.

first day your back!

today!

todaytodaytodayyy.

well.today was not at all as nerve racking as i thought.i was really ok with everything mentally.i just felt,i'm going to do it.like it.be proud of it.and then its out of my hands.i wasn't nervous mentally.but apparently i was nervous physically.cause i was rocking or swaying,and i do that all the time when i'm nervous,its like my nervous reflex.

so my body was nervous without telling my head.thanks body.

but slating i'm a bit confused about.like how do you show who you are?i thought iwas fine,but i was nervous.so how do you get rid of that?

and i talked to a miget.i don't know!i felt like i was in eye line with an actual person,but did i really look that far down????

and i was thinking about something else today.i've just had alot on my mind and i was trying to keep it out,but i guess it still showed.i'm really sorry about that.

and my perfectionist side.i really didn't think i was doing that!i really thought last week i just got over that.and i didn't do my monologue perfect,but i still felt good about it.so i don't see how the perfectionist side came out...

i really just wish i could have seen myself perform it.thats what's driving me crazy.i feel like i did ok,from my point of view.but i feel like viewing it my setting isn't definate,my other actor isn't there.and i'm being really fake.its bugging me,that i think this but i've never heard it from anyone.no one that watched the first time with phil,you didn't say anything.so i'm just so confused.if my mind explodes,you can ignore it.

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i performed my monologue today.good, bad, however i did.i did it.and i feel that i was pretty calm about the situation.way less nervous than the first time.but i feel like last time might have been better.maybe i need some nerves to make it better.

FRIDAY!AHHHH.

monologues were so nerve wracking.

for nothing!

i felt like i did my best.i tried my hardest,and i wasn't nervous.i just stopped caring about what i got and had fun with it.just went up.slated.and did it.

i do feel that my set was...off?i just wanted to know if the audiance felt it.because i did,but i didn;t move around alot and didn;t touch much so i just really wanted them to see that i was in that office place and there's the desk and door and cabinet and everything!

but the dance show!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i felt so just in awe by the whole thing!it was beautiful and i understood it,yet i didn;t and it just blew my mind awayyyyy!i wish i could be that good or even come close to that.i just wanted to get up and do something!!!!

i just don't even know.

but monolgues.i still felt a bit negative but i'm really trying to just let it go.and what ocmes from it comes from it.there is nothing i can do about it anymore.

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even though i have alot of mixed feelings about my monologue over all it felt really good.i'm negative about some parts,positive about others.so i'm working on it.i did all my blogs today.sent you the writing final.and i saw an amazing performance tonight!!!

thursday's post

welllllllll.

tomorrow is the day.

insert scream here.

today though,i practiced my monologue in front of the class, and i need to work on my setting.there is so much i think i could do and what i want it to be.that i'm getting lost in everything.and its like some weird middle way between a bunch of ideas.

so god only knows.

i'm really feeling confertable with character body and tension.today phil had us work by ourselves,doing what ever we needed to prepare for the monologue practice today.and i worked on completly relaxing my body,and removing any tension and just being limp and moldable.then i looked in the mirror and went part by part and tried to figure out what parts of her body my charcter would have tense.then i went from my first and second postions in the scene and worked with the tension.rather than standing still in one place i just kind walked and moved like my character would with her tension.just felt it out and it helped alot.because it broke a mold of what i was doing before,were i would just sr=tand from one place,walk then go to the next and they became almost like poses,but when walking like my character it helped me get in touch with her alot more.

so we shall see what tomorrow brings.....

cue dramatic music.dun dun dunnnnnnnnnnnnnn.

wednesday's post

i'm not really sure what i write about,cause i'm finished with cherry orchard.and i want to wait untill after the final to read the next play.

so today with phil.we worked on percentages and the back.like 70% back focus basically and only 30% front focus.i'm confused about this,like i thought i got it,but how do you use it for acting????like how does it help?i could understand like 30 or 40% back but i feel like why not have the majority in the frint,because thats like your face and the majority of what the audiance focuses on.

so i have no idea.

monologue daqy i creeping closer and closer.i'm just afraid that i wont do anything!and i'm going to regret everything i did.then i'll be in the bottom and then i'll freak out even more!

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

so i'm working on my review all week if you're wondering why this is shorter than usual.

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second day with phil.

i dont really know what to write anymore about cherry orchard.it was interesting but is there much to say about it?there were alot of events but it all seemed "real life" so it's not that nothing happened but nothing CRAZY EXCITING happened. so i'm not really sure what to say about the whole play.

monologues are getting there i guess.today was difficult.i kinda,got confused i could say.i just like lost close to everything i learned.but the seniors and phil told me that oviously your going to have ups and downs so its just a process that i have to deal with.i'm working on it!=]

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my blog's short today because i want to start the review for real today.so today i worked on my monologue in class,i was one of the 4 freshman to go up today and work on our monologues in front of the class.scary,yes,but i'm happy i did it.worked on my review and wrote my blog.and reviewed cherry orchard.

monday-first day with phil.

so cherry orchard is complete!

nothing happened to the story!nothing.it was just like a day in the life of this family.i appriciate the realness and calm of everything.but besides everyone coming back from their trip and then the party and then lopakhin was rude and annoying when he was buying the orchard and hes being unreasonable with cutting it down.

my heart went out to the family though.like that orchard ment so much to them.and that house.that was their life and then lopakhin just comes in and has to take over.he was their friend though!i would be nice and kind and give it back to them.that was there everything,but lopakhin came and just cut it down.

but i did love the ending.i was trying to picture that and even though it was sad for fris he died in the place where he lived.that was his life too.he worked for them for a very long time.and he dies were i think he was the most happy.and how it ended with the cutting down of the orchard.with the lighting,that would be so beautiful,just watching the shadows and hearing the sounds.

so cherry orchard down.one more play to go.

class with phil...

today helped alot.phil had us create our "collapsible surroundings" and then have one position looking at something at a distance.then have a second position.the exercise that helped me the most,was this mirror exercise.he told us to look at a "mirror" and see our character and figure out, body part by body part basically,how we could recreate our character's body on ourselves.then recite the lines of our monolouge in our characters body.i saw that jeannie was more that the defensive bitch i've always saw her as.that at first she wants tom to feel like crap for what he did to her.but that soon she sees that this is a man i used to be open with,and she opens up moreand lets out what was eating away at her for so long,she still makes tom feel like crap but not consiously she opens for herself,but it hurts tom at the same time.

also i saw her more physically.i used to see her as the strong powerful female with a wall that no matter what you said wouldn't come down.but really she's very fragile and raw underneath.so rather than always being strong she,even physically breaks down and LOOKS defeated.not just feels defeated.

so its different than i thought at first.i was afraid because my monologue came off very fake.but now i see that i was doing it completely wrong,that i wasn't fully seeing the character and her setting and what was going to happen.i always saw my setting as on a stage but today i saw it as a real room in the real world,not a set in a play.

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today i really spoke up in class and i saw what phil wanted us to do.i feel like i understood my monologue a thousand times better because of what phil taught us today.i was participating and i read and wrote my blog today.plus i worked on my review which i emailed to you for comments.