tuesday.
so these sisters are so catty!like i really want to say,they're family and they shouldn't be like that.but i feel like they're just playing around and joking with they're little sister.but at the same time i want to kind of say,they're not.they really are this catty and bitchy and almost rude to each other.and i hate to see that in families.
so is adela being a little backstabber and cheating with her sisters fionce?i think so.she's edgy and tepermental and tired...so maybe she's with pepe.because magdalena makes alot of sense when she says pepe shouldn't like angustina.being almost 10-15 years apart,why would a man willingly want to marry an old lady for any reason besides money?what else would there be?especially that they've never met before and augustina's mother keeps her on an extremely tight leesh.
and i want to know why that is!why is bernarda so attached to her daughters?poncia makes a really good crack at the girls saying their house is like a convent,because really those girls even say the word man and their mother comes running in.why can't the girls just leave??they're all old enough to live on their own and there is now way they're happy there.i dont care if you live with your mothjer and grandmother and sisters and what not,being a girl denied men for that long your going to want to leave.and if your grandmother is half insane,you rmother is over bearing and controlling,your going to want to leave even more so i don't understand why these girls dont grow some back bone,leave,get a guy,and go!live your life free as a bird!just go for it already.
i am having an issue with the girl's names.they're all spanish-y and different and complicated.i can't remember who is who.and the age order either because i think thats going to be important in the text at some point.
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wednesday.
so i moved along in act 2 and i'm almost done with that.so adela is being the little back stabber,but now poncia is "in" on the secret.its because she's smart and she's learned about men and relationships before.
i feel bad for all the sisters though.they're clearly jealous and i know how they feel.both my sister do everything first and you get that jealous feeling for your family or even your friends who are doing better than you,but you have to support them some how because your close to them.
i really feel bad for angustias.because if she ever finds out about her sister all hell will break loose.because its her sister and her fionce.how can you forgive them,those people so close to you,just going behind your back like that?
i realloy want to talk about class thoday though.
as soon as i left.i basically broke out into tears.i really thought about it and i have i feel like i have no other option if theatre doesn't work out for something!i'm not smart.i'm a good student.being a good student doesn't give you a job.i've never felt good at anything besides performing.besides being in the theatre.but i'm terrified that i won't be good at it anymore and then i have nothing else to do.i'm not the greastes dancer,i love doing it and thats why i do,i'm decent.so i have no real career in that.i used to feel good with acting,and ever since this school year i've felt confertable with it.now i'm feeling shaken i'm feeling challenged.i like how i'm learning and i feel like i want to make this my lifestlye!i just don't know what to say when on one side i have this love for it,but on the other i have this self doubt that says how will i make this into a career?then i think how do i think about that as a 14 year old?how do i think about my whole career now??how many other kids do that?now??i'm just so scared.that i wont be enough.talented,smart,confident.everything!i'm just really scared and today really made me realise that.
pg-100
well after i poured my heart out to a computer screen.i read bernarda alba.for tuesday and wednesday.i also took some notes about my fair lady from today.and i did pay attention to the movie.
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