friday’s post

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so why do i deserve a 100 today?because i was told that freshman showcase is going way down the toilet, and i sat a cried about our show being completely fucked over.we worked hard all year and it completely sucks that there is absolutely nothing we can do anymore for this show.we have so few options,and each one sucks.this whole situation is un-fair because after all the work we have done not just for freshman showcase,but senior showcase,and mainstage, we don’t get our time,even after being scaled back,its just not going to be what we deserve.there absolutely NO where to pin the blame because so many factors are involved.i just want our show to have a chance so that freshman get a time to show what the fuck we can do!!the seniors are doing all they can,and so is everyone else that is able to help,but its just in no way possible to work anymore!i have really lost a lot of faith in having the show at all the way it was intended.i want it to happen,but how much is actually possible at this point?

i deserve a 100 because i cried for a period and a half,over something that i can not personally fix.

thursday’s post

today i really didn’t have a rehearsal,emily and matt were absent of course,and then margie went home sick.so i stayed in katelin’s rehearsal which was run by daria.while the actors were working i went into the boys dressing room and read all my lines and worked on my diction with my cork.

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today i worked more on my diction,plus i was respectful with katelin’s rehearsal group.i stayed quiet while they ran lines and had their rehearsal.

wednesday’s post

so today was a production day,and i helped move platforms from the trailer, and on stage.which is a giant pain in the butt.but besides that not much teching could be done because of the graduation tonight.

so after that emily helped me a lot with getting my lines finalized in my head,and to run them more so they are defiantly stuck up there and margie got a chance to work with me for my costume.

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by today i have my lines drilled into my head.plus my costume will be finalized shortly!hopefully!which is very exciting.and today i moved a lot of platforms which is insanely tiring and i really hate.so i deserve a 100 for moving giant black table tops.

tuesday’s post

rehearsal again today,not a lot of “practice” was being done. today we worked on trust, and making a connection between me and margie.

we i guess you could say “attempted” trust falls, but my extreme fear of being lifted or falling back kind of prevented that…and made me sound a bit crazy.instead margie and i took turns being blind folded and leading the other around the theatre.i think it really helped me personally,because i was trying to figure out where we were walking incase i tripped or something i would at least have an idea of where the hell i was in the theatre, but at some point while walking around i just gave up and just let margie lead.

plus today we worked on articulation,which i absolutely am learning to hate.corks are not fun to use or to say “of” “butt” “that” or “baby”. i know my articulation sucks, but i really don’t like working on it.

and finally we know what moments we now have to work on.so that i’m guessing is the plan for tomorrow.

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today i came prepared for rehearsal,and begin working on my articulation.i’m sure my parents will be annoyed with me and my cork soon enough.and i’m fixing up my given circumstances.and today i worked on trust exercises which is one of my big issues.so hopefully it will really show and help the scene.

monday’s post

so today, after a gtalk chat with our teacher,we had rehearsal for freshman showcase.

today margie and i finally got to run lines standing up, which helped a lot,because the lines “feel” better when there is action going on.

i also seriously have to work on my tactic sheets.because currently they are blank and i think they would help.along with my moment before,because today in rehearsal, emily had me enter through the dressing room door and while outside i was trying to get into as much character as i could by using my moment before,but i still felt myself grow into character during the run, so i guess i just need to really focus on my moment before.

i also really need to figure out my character’s body.matt pointed out to me today that i still look like a 15 year old.and an awkward one at that.so i need to think of that older looking stance.i know more how my character thinks than how she acts.

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today i think my rehearsal went pretty well.i got some notes to work on,and i’m so close to being off book after that whole break from rehearsing.plus i’m changing/adding to my given circumstances a lot, and i think thats some what good.

thursday’s post

so our first freshman showcase rehearsal in a long time.at first i feared for this showcase,loosing jessica and now arianna.but we will definatly make it work.

so today i realized i hate being an actor,because we all had a talk today about how actors shouldn’t give suggestions to our directors.but i always have ideas!so i have to keep my mouth shut.i’ll have to learn one day to just focus on myself.right now i really have to work on my character.

i tried to make my actors book today.i’m pretty sure i failed on that.the actors book it’s self,i understand.its the writing of it that i’m so frustrated over.i’m just not sure how to write it, my character bio especially.i don’t know if i’m writing about the right part of my character’s life or not, or writing about too much detail.i kinda just went with where ever my thoughts went.i think i know enough now to continue growing my character.because i wrote about my character a couple of times and this one i think fits the best.

one note i got today was that i have to basically bring my character back.and i need to think more about my character.most defiantly.and work on my action sheet.i feel so behind right now because everyone else seems to have their stuff together.

so much work to be done.

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today i came prepared and on time to class.plus i really tried hard to just be an actor today and not worry about everything else.i’m also really excited and nervous for the show.WAY more nervous.its crunch time and we’ve just started.time to work again.

wednesday’s participation

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so today we struck the set,and i am seriously surprised by how much we got done.obviously the seniors started off,but we powered through that set.defiantly deserve a 100 for awesome set de-constructing.

welcome back!

journaling begins again after so long.

well somethings have changed since last time.mainstage is done.most of my reading is done.and i started taking the bus again after about 4 weeks of not being on it.

so waiting for godot.finally started.it’s confusing to me.like extremely confusing.the plot is next to nothing,like there isn’t much change through out the whole play,they begin waiting and they end waiting. i mean lucky and pozzo come along, but then thats about it.

i’m also finding the characters kind of difficult,vladimir seems more focused on godot than estragon, luck is just strange,at first i wasn’t sure he was a person or not.and pozzo seems like a philosopher type.

so the whole play is mainly thematic to me,but the only theme is could really see was why wait for something that may never come? so i think i’m seriously missing like this whole play.

but i’m only in act one,so i’ll see how this wonderful reading goes.

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today we took our history final.which i’m personally not to happy with,simply because i don’t think i did too well.but still i did the 10 short answers as well as all 3 essays.so i deserve a 100 for today.