wednesday's experience.

of course the one day when so much happened, we dont have to journal since we stayed after.

well i am journaling anyway.because i want to remember my experiences with shawn lewis.

first off, hey there shawn! he's the exact kind of crazy you discribed. but i felt just such a passion and true understanding of himself, his body, his craft. and it was a great thing to see in such a reserved person. i appreciated his,getting on our level, and treating us like peers and friends not students. though at first i wasn't sure where any learning was coming in. i thought he was just walking around and chatting.then his wrods kinda came back to me and i went, oh yeah we are just being right now. i wish i had 5 minutes alone. i wanted to experience it. but i felt like there wasn't much wrong that could be done in class.

i explained this afterward,but i'm a thinker. i over think and pre-paln and it sucks! but i just went with shawns free-flow today and let everything go. i did my own thing, i zoned in and out of shawn's 10 minutes, because it was my 10 minutes too. i didnt have to focus on everything,cause it was mine.MINE MINE MINE MINE MINE MINE. all mine. when we had our giant pile, i didnt have to sit there and slep or lay on people, i can play with the candle or watch scarlette draw or see how many shadows the lights were making on my hands (6 infact) or what colors where on the lights,and how that made me think and feel. they were diming and people were breathing,and theyre moving and not moving. and it was all okay!!

then we had our campfire.which i felt was just fun. just a fun thing to do and say. and it was nice to picture and to feel like it did happen. i feel like it was partially knowing everyone made it more real,and you could see how people would act around a campfire.

then we had our i guess movement/speaking to the sike. monster, monster, monster. this point is when i saw shawn do it,but it wasn't right away. i expected for him to speak as soon as he faced the sike. but no,he took his time to get comfortable and to breathe.which was great. then i got to try. i was scared at first but i just let myself relax,and feel comfortable around myself and then i said monster,monster,monster. i did whatever movement just came to my body.and it felt great.

i do have to give myself a bit of a pat on the back,because on top of acting, i was stage managing a bit. i tried to work the lights (my intentions were there) but you kinda took over since i was in class. i got the cord for shawn. and it just felt like cool to be a stage manager.even if i was not doing much, it still feels cool to be called a stage manager and know that i have responsiblities.

which brings me to, open rehearsal fail. i wish it would have pulled through because i was looking forward to seeing lou direct,and see a director work with professional actors.and to see chelsea stage manage with the actors. and i guess you could say i was a bit of a mini-sm. cause i helped chelsea with getting people on stage, and keeping them under control while she did her sm duties.

all and all it was a very good day. and if you read all that babble,you desrve a metal.