today we finished our strike.i taught people how to properly wrap cableand how to put the lights back correctly.i started to organize the lights but didnt get to finish.i'm making sure i learn and teach as much tech as i can before main stage so i dont look like an idiot.
pg-100
i took down the trees with john and emily.i taought people how to wrap cable and put lights back.with lexii,kelsey,john,and emily i started to organize the lights in the cage.i also tried to be as confident with giving out jobs to people as possible.
Thursday, December 23, 2010
wednesday's post
today was pep rally day. we had a conversation about getting out there and getting your ass wet.so yeah,i should do that.
another attempt at this new part.
today after the pep rally we worked on the events.i took all the notes so i can get a better understanding of comedy.i participated in our events discusion.checked my email again for jess:no response.
alright fuck this i do not care.i am typing up this stupid blog and crying!crying for no fucking reason.im about to be really mope-y and sad and depressing and i dont give a fuck because im sick of keeping this buddled up in class when i want to fucking cry.i hate hearing about college and how hard its going to be.i hate typing these journals because they just get me so pissed.i hate not knowing where im going to go into.i hate people telling me im doing fine,when i dont see the results.i hate being scared to act,and being horrible at it,and not understanding even the easiest of concepts.i hate how everyone else seems to just be able to do and understand and stay calm about so much.where's there little bitch fests???i hate how im such a thinker,and all i can do well is tech.i hate how im going to suck as a stage manager and i think katelyn should just get all of it,because im going to be a fucking wreck.how the hell anyone is an sm for our class is beyond me.cause either you have the people who work constantly,and always need jobs,that you cant give them,or the people who are "cleaning the dressing room" and do nothing.how can you stay on top of this shit! i cant even be assertive enough to hadle a simple light crew thingy,which was assigned to me,without it being taken up by someone else.i hate that everyone probably thinks of me as a stupid bitch who likes to complain and be depressed.i just want to leave.leave theatre,because i cant do this.college.then the real world.trying to make money.in a job that no one gets.no one understands this crap we go through.its easy to them.well its not fucking easy.im in fucking 10th grade and im freaking out about after college.why cant i just do nothing,get c's and d's and go to middlesex?because i have to be the psycopath and want to be in theatre.
pg-100
i just spilled my soul.i took notes today.i listened and participated.i wrote the rehearsal report.
another attempt at this new part.
today after the pep rally we worked on the events.i took all the notes so i can get a better understanding of comedy.i participated in our events discusion.checked my email again for jess:no response.
alright fuck this i do not care.i am typing up this stupid blog and crying!crying for no fucking reason.im about to be really mope-y and sad and depressing and i dont give a fuck because im sick of keeping this buddled up in class when i want to fucking cry.i hate hearing about college and how hard its going to be.i hate typing these journals because they just get me so pissed.i hate not knowing where im going to go into.i hate people telling me im doing fine,when i dont see the results.i hate being scared to act,and being horrible at it,and not understanding even the easiest of concepts.i hate how everyone else seems to just be able to do and understand and stay calm about so much.where's there little bitch fests???i hate how im such a thinker,and all i can do well is tech.i hate how im going to suck as a stage manager and i think katelyn should just get all of it,because im going to be a fucking wreck.how the hell anyone is an sm for our class is beyond me.cause either you have the people who work constantly,and always need jobs,that you cant give them,or the people who are "cleaning the dressing room" and do nothing.how can you stay on top of this shit! i cant even be assertive enough to hadle a simple light crew thingy,which was assigned to me,without it being taken up by someone else.i hate that everyone probably thinks of me as a stupid bitch who likes to complain and be depressed.i just want to leave.leave theatre,because i cant do this.college.then the real world.trying to make money.in a job that no one gets.no one understands this crap we go through.its easy to them.well its not fucking easy.im in fucking 10th grade and im freaking out about after college.why cant i just do nothing,get c's and d's and go to middlesex?because i have to be the psycopath and want to be in theatre.
pg-100
i just spilled my soul.i took notes today.i listened and participated.i wrote the rehearsal report.
tuesday's post
today we had hopie come and visit! as much as i love these alumni visits,they always make me so sad,cause you just hear how hard its going to get.its like highschool isnt always easy,then college is hard as hell.you just can never catch a break!
okay so here goes an attempt at the new way of writing blogs.so i helped the production of comedy of errors today,by re-hanging our general light plot with scarlett and lexii,and you.i checked my email for any updates on jessica,but so far haven't had any.
pg-100
i deserve a 100 for listening to hope and trying my best not to mope about college. i got everyone to come back to the classroom since were not supposed to take the keys.i tried to lead the lights group but you and scarlett kind of took over,which i was happy about, since i started to mope. i hung lights and re-wired things.
okay so here goes an attempt at the new way of writing blogs.so i helped the production of comedy of errors today,by re-hanging our general light plot with scarlett and lexii,and you.i checked my email for any updates on jessica,but so far haven't had any.
pg-100
i deserve a 100 for listening to hope and trying my best not to mope about college. i got everyone to come back to the classroom since were not supposed to take the keys.i tried to lead the lights group but you and scarlett kind of took over,which i was happy about, since i started to mope. i hung lights and re-wired things.
Monday, December 20, 2010
monday's post
okay just throwing out there,that i currently have over 200 blog posts, i feel accomplished. i think that shows the work and how much i've done over the past year and a half. so yay it's like a 200 anniversary party!
so today we kind of got really off topic looking for your portfolio (which i think we will find! somewhere!) then talking about our experiences with the concert. which i'm excited for the sophomores to do one day. i think if we have a concert this year,and then have it again next year (around the same time) and then have it senior year it can become an annual concert, regardless of who the money goes to, it would still be making money for novus and as the years go on it will hopefully become more popular and more people will come to see it, gaining more money for novus. i vote yes. because i think since we're allowed to use the theatre for benefits now why not use that chance?
we did get some events done though. i think we finished maybe 4 events in a period with some discussions in between? something like that.its going really fast,i think its because everyone is really starting to work on the play and understand it alot more so its getting way easier.
pg-100
today i wrote all the notes we took.i paid attention, and contributed during all our discussions. i spoke with you abou jessica today. and i emailed her about the tech days when i came home, hopefully we have a lighting designer soon.
so today we kind of got really off topic looking for your portfolio (which i think we will find! somewhere!) then talking about our experiences with the concert. which i'm excited for the sophomores to do one day. i think if we have a concert this year,and then have it again next year (around the same time) and then have it senior year it can become an annual concert, regardless of who the money goes to, it would still be making money for novus and as the years go on it will hopefully become more popular and more people will come to see it, gaining more money for novus. i vote yes. because i think since we're allowed to use the theatre for benefits now why not use that chance?
we did get some events done though. i think we finished maybe 4 events in a period with some discussions in between? something like that.its going really fast,i think its because everyone is really starting to work on the play and understand it alot more so its getting way easier.
pg-100
today i wrote all the notes we took.i paid attention, and contributed during all our discussions. i spoke with you abou jessica today. and i emailed her about the tech days when i came home, hopefully we have a lighting designer soon.
Sunday, December 19, 2010
wednesday-friday's posts
i stayed after for concert tech.
i'm going to apologize for basically being a bitch in class, whenever i was, those 3 days.i couldnt actually say why i was so pissy.but i shouldn't have been,and that was quite stupid of me.
i'm going to apologize for basically being a bitch in class, whenever i was, those 3 days.i couldnt actually say why i was so pissy.but i shouldn't have been,and that was quite stupid of me.
Saturday, December 18, 2010
tuesday's late post
so tuesday, we started an event list pretty much about comedy of errors.it was difficult,but helpful in seeing that every event isn't every scene. and every climax ina play isn't the only climax you're going to find. each individual event has a platform,inciting action,sometimes events,a climax,and a resolution.that event forever changing the world of the play.kind of crazy to think about.i took down all the notes from the spread sheet,and asked questions as to why doing this is important,which i completely understand now.doing this helps the actors imensly, rather than just saying their lines,they know what their ever changing objective is.
pg-100 (so 50.)
today i wrote the rehearsal report for katelyn,simply because we started earlier than usual,and she wasn't there for it.i tried with my group to figure out what the events were in act 1,but we failed miserably.i did take down notes and followed along with todays lesson.
pg-100 (so 50.)
today i wrote the rehearsal report for katelyn,simply because we started earlier than usual,and she wasn't there for it.i tried with my group to figure out what the events were in act 1,but we failed miserably.i did take down notes and followed along with todays lesson.
monday's late post
so i forgot to blog.but i'm going to write them anyway in hopes of getting half credit since i missed? on top of that monday was interesting so i'm going to put my memories up on the internet.
can we just have a "dun,dun,dun,dunnnnn" for PSATS scores, and yet another college talk,grades talk,and studying talk. not that i hate the talks or anything,but i do.because everytime we as a class have to talk about these things, i just think they get more and more impossible to make happen.okay yeah, i got a decent score, one of the highest in class, but so what? doing well this one time, or doing bad this one time, doesn't mean you'll automatically do well/bad when it matters. for all i know it could have been a lucky day. i could have guessed everything correct by a work of god.who knows? then studying for 3 hours a day.thats alot of studying.i straight up do not have that kind of muscle.nor do i think i'll get there any time soon.i rarely have had to study all my life,which im thankful for,but it made me a complete slacker.im not going to make excuses here, im lazy ass hell when it comes to work.so in a year in a half maybe my grades might be okay,but there is no way to garenty my SATS are not going to be nearly as great.thats why i didnt sign the "im going to get over a 1400 on my SATS" paper last year.
so ienwnblojnrbp;ojwnbdsfvqweba.besides that. we started working on physical features and gestures of characters today. i have to say its kind of weird to not be up on stage working,and just having to watch them work and take notes.i just have to give alot of credit to actors,because seeing the character,physical,mental,and diction work they have to do is crazy.and were onlyin hihgschool,imaging how much more goes into a major stage play or movie, in kind of mind blowing.
pg-100 (so 50 for half credit)
today i listened during all of our lectures today. it gave me a lot to think about. as the ever present pesimistic realist, yeah not all of it was positive. when we went to the stage i tried to really watch the actors and try to think "how would i do that?" what would i see for this character or this one. i think doing things like that while still sm-ing, will help me see where i want to end up in theatre.and i wrote the rehearsal report.
can we just have a "dun,dun,dun,dunnnnn" for PSATS scores, and yet another college talk,grades talk,and studying talk. not that i hate the talks or anything,but i do.because everytime we as a class have to talk about these things, i just think they get more and more impossible to make happen.okay yeah, i got a decent score, one of the highest in class, but so what? doing well this one time, or doing bad this one time, doesn't mean you'll automatically do well/bad when it matters. for all i know it could have been a lucky day. i could have guessed everything correct by a work of god.who knows? then studying for 3 hours a day.thats alot of studying.i straight up do not have that kind of muscle.nor do i think i'll get there any time soon.i rarely have had to study all my life,which im thankful for,but it made me a complete slacker.im not going to make excuses here, im lazy ass hell when it comes to work.so in a year in a half maybe my grades might be okay,but there is no way to garenty my SATS are not going to be nearly as great.thats why i didnt sign the "im going to get over a 1400 on my SATS" paper last year.
so ienwnblojnrbp;ojwnbdsfvqweba.besides that. we started working on physical features and gestures of characters today. i have to say its kind of weird to not be up on stage working,and just having to watch them work and take notes.i just have to give alot of credit to actors,because seeing the character,physical,mental,and diction work they have to do is crazy.and were onlyin hihgschool,imaging how much more goes into a major stage play or movie, in kind of mind blowing.
pg-100 (so 50 for half credit)
today i listened during all of our lectures today. it gave me a lot to think about. as the ever present pesimistic realist, yeah not all of it was positive. when we went to the stage i tried to really watch the actors and try to think "how would i do that?" what would i see for this character or this one. i think doing things like that while still sm-ing, will help me see where i want to end up in theatre.and i wrote the rehearsal report.
Friday, December 10, 2010
fridays post
so today was the last day of 12 princesses. i learned a lot about calling a show, and being a stage manager. it was pretty amazing to work with ms.mac and all the dancers. they especially gave me alot to think about for running comedy.
Thursday, December 9, 2010
tuesday,wednesday,thrusday's posts
so all 3 days i was teching for ms.macs dance show. and thursday was the show.which was insanely nerve racking. and i wasn't even on stage!
monday's post
so today i had to come in late because i had to go to the eye doctor. just so you know, it was because i have 2 "lazy eyes" though the doctor gave me a way more confusing name for them. the 2 solutions or atleast options that will help, are either glasses with a very low perscription, or eye therapy. so either i'm going to get glasses or some eye help.
anyway today we re-started tabel work! it's moving kind of slow,but i'm payng attention for the rehearsal reports. even though katelyn is doing it today, i paid attention to see if i could have anything to add later on.
pg-100
today i paid attention even though i had to come in later. i read over the rehearsal report so i knew where we were and what i missed.
anyway today we re-started tabel work! it's moving kind of slow,but i'm payng attention for the rehearsal reports. even though katelyn is doing it today, i paid attention to see if i could have anything to add later on.
pg-100
today i paid attention even though i had to come in later. i read over the rehearsal report so i knew where we were and what i missed.
Friday, December 3, 2010
friday's post
today i was backstage for ms.mac's dance show. it was pretty awesome. my new favorite person is melanie, on eof mac's dancers. and she is an insanely amazing mover. she's graceful, but is also built like a dancing robot. i love her and she is amaizng.
and i get extra credit cause i was there, so no blog for friday.
and i get extra credit cause i was there, so no blog for friday.
thursday's post
so today we talked about the fdu workshop a bit. then more about college and we talked a LOT about the "clean up" part of college.how they'll fix you up and make you super presentable. which is both exciting and terrifying.
i just dont know about college and sats and everything about it. i dont know what to think of it. i just get super negative about sats. going to get low scores because i know i'll underestimate the test, then that means no college. but by some miracle i get decent scores, then its applying,essays,scholorships,financial aid,actually being part of the 10% they pick from,then actually getting picked. then hopefully surviving 4 years of bfa in ANYTHING classes. then some how trying to make it. make money,get a job. do something with your life. in a buisness where 90% is unemployed, and you make next to nothing for doing a shit load of work.
the future.fucking.scares.me. i dont want to get into the hard parts. i want it to be easy. because how can anyone deal with all this crap? how does anyone do anything ever? you have to be a fucking genious,talented,street smart,and be likeable. i just dont feel like i can handle all of this during and after high school. i understand its not easy,but i dont even think i can handle the difficulty of all of it. but this is what i want to be doing. i just hate talks about the future. i want to go nowhere and work at mcdonalds forever.make it easy on myself.
call me negative or whatever, its just relaistic.
well, after spilling my soul, we cleaned urine town today.i sorted through plates cups and other crap like that with john. we found 2 dead rats. it was pretty nasty.
pg-100
today i participated in our discussion on fdu's workshop yesterday.i participated in our discussion about college. i was prepared to finish the read through, even though we didnt get to finish. we cleaned urine town. i wrapped glass cups and stuff with john,sorting through all the kitchen stuff. i also learned that you're not supposed to wrap props up,becuase then you cant tell what they are.
i just dont know about college and sats and everything about it. i dont know what to think of it. i just get super negative about sats. going to get low scores because i know i'll underestimate the test, then that means no college. but by some miracle i get decent scores, then its applying,essays,scholorships,financial aid,actually being part of the 10% they pick from,then actually getting picked. then hopefully surviving 4 years of bfa in ANYTHING classes. then some how trying to make it. make money,get a job. do something with your life. in a buisness where 90% is unemployed, and you make next to nothing for doing a shit load of work.
the future.fucking.scares.me. i dont want to get into the hard parts. i want it to be easy. because how can anyone deal with all this crap? how does anyone do anything ever? you have to be a fucking genious,talented,street smart,and be likeable. i just dont feel like i can handle all of this during and after high school. i understand its not easy,but i dont even think i can handle the difficulty of all of it. but this is what i want to be doing. i just hate talks about the future. i want to go nowhere and work at mcdonalds forever.make it easy on myself.
call me negative or whatever, its just relaistic.
well, after spilling my soul, we cleaned urine town today.i sorted through plates cups and other crap like that with john. we found 2 dead rats. it was pretty nasty.
pg-100
today i participated in our discussion on fdu's workshop yesterday.i participated in our discussion about college. i was prepared to finish the read through, even though we didnt get to finish. we cleaned urine town. i wrapped glass cups and stuff with john,sorting through all the kitchen stuff. i also learned that you're not supposed to wrap props up,becuase then you cant tell what they are.
Thursday, December 2, 2010
wednesday's post
today we had another read through, and re-tested everyone who failed. i was both happy and frustrated with some of the actors today. happy because all of them memorized more than they originally had. every single one clearly did better than the mess we had last time. i was frustrated though, because they were a) not FULLY memorized,and anyone who failed still does not have an A (yes, i understand its hard to memorize,but they did have almost 3 months to memorize, and an extra 2 weeks to fix any problems they had! i think if theyre not fully memorized by now, when will they be?) and b) it was a slow process. we were dragging through the read through. we were skipping scenes and huge chunks of dialogue and we're still not done! i just want to hear a full read through, hear how everyone interacts with each other,and we really haven't had that yet.
BUT BUT BUT BUT BUT. we had a workshop with stacy today and an info session about FDU. i liked that fdu seems very willing to help you take different classes. i mean this was my first ever college info session, but they seemed flexiable with double majoring or major/minoring. the workshop was really fun. it was good to get back into a bit of meisner. though sebastian and i kind of didn't follow stacys direction,(though we tried, we just kind of went with what happened) we got into a bit of repetition and we did follow the "i observe, i perceve" lesson. i enjoyed learning from a different teacher and in a different style.
pg-100
today i ran the read through with katelyn. we ran it as smoothly and as quickly as we could. i also learned how to make excel calculate averages instead of me having to do the math last week,and applied it to our spread sheet.then i participated in the fdu workshop and listened and took notes during the info session.
BUT BUT BUT BUT BUT. we had a workshop with stacy today and an info session about FDU. i liked that fdu seems very willing to help you take different classes. i mean this was my first ever college info session, but they seemed flexiable with double majoring or major/minoring. the workshop was really fun. it was good to get back into a bit of meisner. though sebastian and i kind of didn't follow stacys direction,(though we tried, we just kind of went with what happened) we got into a bit of repetition and we did follow the "i observe, i perceve" lesson. i enjoyed learning from a different teacher and in a different style.
pg-100
today i ran the read through with katelyn. we ran it as smoothly and as quickly as we could. i also learned how to make excel calculate averages instead of me having to do the math last week,and applied it to our spread sheet.then i participated in the fdu workshop and listened and took notes during the info session.
tuesday's post
so today we went to see the atlantic theatre company and it was a super awesome, totally screws up your mind, pinter experience. so no blogs.
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