wow.what a dork i am.

because i can't control my computer,while looking at my blog,i clicked apon someone elses blog.not even sure who.but i just realised,i have like the longest blog ever.

after looking at some other blogs because i have no life like that i realised that i write like a psycoapth.

i guess i just have a super amount of crap to say about the smallest of things,i'm sorry for putting you through all of the reading=]

thursday's post.

OH MY GOD SHE STOOPS TO CONQUER!!!!!!!

wow.it was such an experience.it was so great,and i know i sound so cliche,but it was amazing!!

for our review,i actually wanted to say something about the colors of the costumes,because i noticed that at the very begining.because the colors were so crazy,and i thought that was odd,for the time period,because you would think that they would have worn more blase colors,more neutrals,but the two girls came strait out wil a bright blue and yellow dress,then the mother came in her wonderful pink number,and i was really surprised.

but i feel like thats almost a cop-out because we disussed it on the bus as well,and alot of people had ideas about it,but that was one of the most interesting parts of the play for me at least,was the costumes and set.

cherry orchard!

i only read liubov's huge speech like 20 thousand times.so now we know why everyone left for paris,but what i want to know is who she had an affair with?is it on of the characters in the story?and who would treat her with such disrespect?

i know i sound like a broken record with this,but nothing is happening to blogg about!its all small talk i feel like!i like it,i like how its flowing and how real it is...but nothing interesting is happening.

i'm starting to like lopakhin.he seems kinda like a dreamer,kind of like a romantisist with a buisness flair.so i'm excited to see what will happen to him along the way.

i'm just waiting for something to happen.something interesting!!

i jsut want to rant abit about the monologues.

i was the only freshman today to attempt to read my monologue.i had butterflies coming out my butt thats how nervous i was.

i feel like i am being real in some way.i'm saying it as much of me as i can put into the character,and she's alot like me but its still fake and it feels weird.then today when you told me to seduce javi,i felt lie how can i do that when its a mnologue thats so differnet from seduction?how would you ever apply a goal to a monologue thats completely different from the goal set by strictly reading the monologue?

like if you look a monologue nora can do where shes saying "i'm spoiling the children and i'm a horrible person for this!" and your told to cheer someone up how can you do that?

or should it just be,even if the words aren't a match to the feeling or goal, you say them with that inflection and make them mean what your goal is?

audition week should be fun...

pg for friday!-100

today i contributed in our discussion,which makes perfect sense!i see that i do that so much,once you think about it,you see it.you just realise how much our animal instincts are still inside of us some where.i was also the one and only freshman to read my monologue,as bad and as fake as i was.i walked away feeling confused,crappy,stupid,confidence-less,and pissed at myself.so it was an interesting day to say the least.=].

wednesday.

ok,before i talk about the reading.i want to talk about today.

i'm really sorry about like running away when you were trying to talk to me.i was lost in thought,and i was so absorbed in it, i was kinda like,theres other people and there talking to me?

so again,i'm really sorry.

what i thought about the exorcise was basically...WHAT?i just can't get it.i can soft focus,because i've done it before.but i can never do it in class.and i know that were not supposed to be correcting ourselves,but i always feel like i'm doing everything wrong.i'm such a compulsive over thinker.so i like,can't get past it.so then i start thinking,well am i cut out for this?because i'm not doing it right.so then i get really down,and thats what happened today.so i was just caught up in everything.

so yeah.thats what i thought about the exorcise.

but on to the reading!

cherry orchard.

i still feel like nothing is going on!and its annoying the crap out of me.all i read is "yellow ball in side pocket"-gayev.or something about cutting down the cherry ochard.its just like will anything happen????i mean i appretiate the realness,how everything is true life for these people,nothing dramatic happens without a build up right?but i mean something has to occur soon!something...i mean i hate to say this,but i feel stupid when i read and i know there is something happening underneith it all,i'm just missing it!

its just so frustrating.

so the ovious.liubov is worried about the house but is hesitant to sell it or to start anything.gayev is worried as well,but he wants to keep the home,and i have to agree.i mean its your family's house,but wouldn't you rather live in it the way you remember for as long as possible and not start chopping things down and building things,then regret it later?or live and keep things in your memory as much as possible then say good-bye as you will always remeber?

lopakhin is bothering me!hes like that telemarketer that doesn't stop calling and trying to get you to buy timeshares.but he's alive!lopakhin just doesn't shut up.change the house,make money.change the house make money.his mind is so one tracked.just money money money and more money.i want someone to yell at him and just say shut up!

so i'm still reading miss julie,and its same old same old.i want to read mud!but i'm afaid if my parents knew what happened in it at all,they would say no.

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i took part in the exorcise today,as bad or confused as i was,i took part in it.i tried my hardest.i also swept today!and i think i still stepped on a pin without knowing.plus i totally fell on the steps,i dont know if you saw that...i also remembered my blacks today.i read and wrote my journal.

tuesday

another day of cherry orchard.

i feel like nothing is going on!what am i missing?everyones just catching up,trying to save the house,what else is there?????

i'm getting frustrated with this,because i feel like i'm missing something huge!but i have no idea what it is.and thats annoying the crap out of me.

leonid gayev talks to much;he's like the grandfather that keeps telling war stories or tells family secrets to the grandkids that aren't suposed to know.

varya is a big worrier.anya is the ideal little sister.thats all i really see!

anger directed toward cherry orchard and its meanings.anger directed toward my stupid little mind for not clicking with the story!

anyways...

also reading mrs.julie and i like it so far.even though it's a sextus piece of work its still good.

jean is such a jerk!i don't understand why julie likes him or lets him get away with what he's saying to her!

"miss julie-you talk as if your already stood high above me.
jean-well don't i?don't forget i could make you a countess but you can never make me a count."

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

first of all,julie might be treating him like an equal,like he's her boyfriend or what ever.but she is still above him in society,and she realises that.you would think jean would like being equal,that he would like not being told what to do.but he doesn't!he acts as if he's been above all along,that julie is just another person.sure he's mettions the fact that he is a servant,but then he goes back to beinga popus little...jerk!

and why is julie below him?????because she's a girl??????????

i dislike jean.

and julie just takes it!i thought she was a stronger character than that!but i guess not.

and finally.i started to read mud.just like the first scene.i had to put it down for a second,and just take a step back and say,did they just actually say that????

i want to read it but i'm almost fearful.like the first few lines and they had already dropped the f-bomb.twice.by the 20th line.so what else could possibly happen?

anyway.i'm sure i'm missing more than i know.in miss julie and cherry orchard.but it will click at some point,its just how i role.same with uncle vanya.it just might take a bit.

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i participated in the class disscussion today.i'm trying to look for more in everything,in the plays and the movie.i attempted with the monologue today...not to much fun.i had more memorized and it just flew out the window.like woosh!i also did journals today and i read,and i tried to memorize more of my monologue.

monday.

cherry orchard reading.

i'm just so confused with all these characters!i have no idea who they are.or why they're there.or anything!i tried the chart thing,but the text isn't helping,so i used the character analysis in the begining.

so now i have

liubov ranyeskaya-the mother and owner of the property.she has two kids anya and varya
anya-17 years old
varya-24, adopted.likes lopakhin
plus...
leonid gayev-who is liubov's brother.not sure what he does yes.but he's like an uncle to anya and varya.

then there are some friends there.

lopakhin-"buisness man" likes varya.
trofimov-grad student,no relations.
pishchik-neighbor basically; the book says he owns property in the neighborhood.so neighbor.
carlotta-governess;not sure to who,but i'm guessing shes married.
yepikhodov-accountant;he's the one causeing problems,because he says they have to sell the orchard to pay for the morgage.

then we have the help

dunyasha-maid; friends with anya and engaged to yepikhodov
firs-butler
yasha-valet.

so what i have read so far is that anya,yasha,and liubov,and carlotta have all returned from france.now the family and local friends are getting back together.

lopakhin has devised a plan to "save" the estate.by giving up the cherry orchard.but the family is extremely against giving it up.but lopakhin is really pushing the idea.

the family isn't extremely worried about the morgage,or at least they don't seem to be.even pishchik has problems with morgage and he's just waiting for money to fall into his lap.

the family is so open,but i feel like there is a problem lying under everything,like a family secret.and i also think there will be alot of love triangles to sort through.many "i think he/she likes me i might like him/her" relationships.

the chart/list above i think i'm going to use that in almost every blog,because it did help with the reading.so if you see it,ignore it basically.just there as my guide.

anyway.i'm still reading miss julie and i'm really excited to see how it ends.jean seems kind of basterd-y.like he's better than julie while still under her.like he knows deep down he's better,he should be higher up than miss julie.but he's under her.so his teachings and up bringing are over powering his better judgement.

julie just doesn't care.she seems like a "screw you if you don't like me and what i do!" kid of girl.which is cool,but then who would and how could someone convince her she's under anyone?under a man who should be under her? i'm so excited to see what happens!

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i still can not find the mainstage tab!i looked but i can't find it neither can my mom on a different computer.

but anyway.i offered to be a leader.today i swept and mopped the wing.i started to clean the cage...even though i didn't at first.i started!then we had to stop to help matt with the lights and wrapping cables.so i deserve a 100.

concert concepts.my phone messes them up...

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ok.so today.i brought in my stuff for the conssesions.i participated in class discussion i had my monologue.i helped with tech after school.runing to katelin,to the mall for batteries,to fill up the brita.just stuff.the concert was AMAZING.had the best time of my life.i was a giant dinosaur groupie!!!!!i'll be there for the reunion!so yeah.i deserve a 100.

from the lonely freshamn=]

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today i participated in the acting "games/warm ups" with the 8th graders.i was also there at rehersal.i took notes for you,even though i can't spell JAVI'S name right.and i have no idea what dan's songs are called,i took notes.i also helped matt with some of the lights,running back and forth to the cage,toward the end.and i'm really sorry i didn't let you know personally that i was leaving but i hope that dan passed along the messgae that my mom was waiting outside and really wanted to get going.

but i deserve a 100 mostly cause i was the only freshman there today=]

directed destany???

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so today.we did more tech.i tried to stay quiet.and i was there to help if ever neccesary.found out i am now pegged as a future director!great.i'm making sugar cookies for the show..if that matters as participation.learning more and more about tech everyday.i still believe i should be banned from anything super techinical like mics.just incase i spazz.anyway go giant dinosaur!

tech/movie day 2

ok,between rehersals and dance i dont have a whole lot of time for blogging.i'm going to post them all on thursday or friday.

pg-100

i wasn't sleeping today i swear!!!stupid eyes.evil.the root of evil.
anyway.i was paying attention to the movie,and i got more then i thought.i was lost(or so i thought!)but then i got it.so no problem there.i helped after school today.go giant dinasoar!one of only two freshman there!!!!but tech was so much fun.i' m going to be back on thursday if we still have practice.so i deserve a 100.

tech week day 1.

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today i helped matt die up loose wires on the elcetrics.as well as hang up lights on the electrics.i helped emily when neccessary.i learned how to gel the lights,how to put the gels in and how to set them up.tie line is evil because you either loose it or you have too much..came prepared with the rights clothes today.and i'm working out how to stay at the concert.i deserve a 100.

friday's participation.

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well today.every single freshman was scared out of their minds about colleges.i now have a new mantra.it's for julliard!!!!but today.i stayied quite durring the "college talk".and during your explaination.i'm sad that we didn't write much today,but we do have tech all next week!!!!!!!

(is it possible that for tech days we can change if we bring other clothes??

thursday's post.

flibbertigibbet i smy new favorite word.i don't know what it means,but i like it.

now the reading.
now theres more family?where are these people coming from and who are they!now we have liubov,gayev,lopakhin,and semyonov-pishchik.
everyone is kind of recalling,so oviously many of these people have not seen each other in a while.
so this old family house,is about to be sold because they couldn't pay the morgage.now to save it they're planning a renovation.but this involves cutting down the cherry orchard.a renownd orchard that the family loves,now is slipping through their fingers because of the morgage.i want to know who these people are though.like their relationships with each other.its driving me crazy not knowing who is who.and why they were gone and all of that.

i'm trying to take it slow with the reading because its new and all that.so i don't know how much i can write about today.

but i do want to talk about independant activity.

boy was that interesting.so yeah,i can do the turns not perfect though, thats why i chose them,because i'm a perfectionist with dance.
what i thought was funny was how you were correcting me.yeah my turn out sucks.i know.and so does spotting.
but i don't know,i was just like...mad that whole time,and i hated it!i wanted to just calm down,but with you and kaitlin both talking i wanted to scream.
but that would seem a little fake to me.
and to comment to what you said about dancing.honastly,i love where i am,were a really small studio and were like a family,so really i'd rather have fun and learn,than just learn.
maybe next year but for now i'm sticking to where i am.

pg-100
today oviously i did my independent activity and took a "beating" i guess.but i loved the honasty,i'd rather people tell me i sucked so badly than to say you did ok...because that doesn't help you at all to learn so thank you for that.next week i definatly want to try repetiton again.i was a mess last time,but i want to try again.i also blogged and was prepared today.so i deserve a 100.

wednesday's post

so a bit more to tack on to that thesis i've got going...

maybe its not so much the female to male punishments in the government,but how it was taken apon in society at the time.sure i can incorperate the punishments in law.but i feel that the biggest difference would be in the society.if a man does something,he wouldn't be talked about because of his power,his manly-ness!men do it because they're strong,not that it's seen as right but its almost they have more of a power to scare you or threaten you,so you'll say good things or ignore it.when a women commits a crime its looked down apon,she's seen as worthless almost.people say"why would she do that?" "what did she have to gain?".women are below men so they don't havepower,what can a woman do to you?their weak,easili breakable,emotional,like jello comparied to the man's rock.

reading.-chekhov cherry orchard

ok so our first comedy.and the longest by a whole act.

so its kinda like a bit of a family reunion happening in this house.many relatives have been off in france,its winter,everyone's catching up.
there's also alot of romaince.it seems like evryone likes someone,but no one's really married.all these people have a past with each other.
i'm still trying to get names down.they keep talking about "mama".so i'm guessing that all people besides dunyasha are related.brothers and sisters plus the girlfriends/boyfriends or spouces of the family.
what i want to know is what hapened.why is everyone returning after 5 years?what's happened that brings everyone back at the same time?what will happen?because with a big family there is always drama.i'm just waiting for something to happen.and to figure out all the characters.

i'm not really sure what else to say besides the basics.and are we only reading 4 plays this whole year?????or just this marking period?

wednesday participation

pg-100

so today was tech.i was failing constantly!but i tried.even though veronica and i might have pissed off mat with our inability to screw in screws.but after 5 times of being told how to do it, i think i got it.and i now feel bad for any techie.tech is hard stuff.everything was easy but the screws.they strongly dislike me,and vice versa.but go giant dinosaur!

tuesday's post.

so today.

i'm still trying to figure out six characters ending.i can't wait untill everyone gets through it,then we can go over it in class.untill then,i'm just a deer in headlights.

because i finished doll's house and 6 characters,am i allowed to talk about fat pig?or would you prefer that i read the next play,OR re-talk about 6 characters and doll's house?

for now,just to be safe i'll discuss six characters.

so,the big question on my mind is the step-daughter.why did she leave?what did that signify?why could she leave but the son could not?why did the young boy shoot himself?WHAT DOES THIS ALL MEAN?

purpose of me re-reading.clearly i didn't understand the play.i do have to admit that everytime the father went of on a tangent.i zoned out completely.i was not even close to home.some i got,some were ok,but then it would go on and i would loose it.

and besides that.i'm continueing my journey into fat pig in search of a monologue.i'm determined to do a good job and prove everyone wrong and actually like my monologue form freshman year.but i'm sure the hatred is inevitable and will come in time.but i realy want to be a senior and look back and say,it wasn't that bad!it wasn't tragic.i'm sure i will,but it would be super cool if i wouldn't.

so tha was today in a bit of nutshell.and i am proud to be a weird person who is also a theatre geek!

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today i took notes and participated in class,i got what you were saying.i actually understode the modernism,post-modernism,and post-post-modernism.it clicked.i'm super excited for tech tomorrow=]and then independant activity on thursday!i also posted my monday post and i started really working on my thesis paper.i'm kinda getting excited for it now.but i deserve a 100!!!!!

monday's post.

thesis paper.

possible thesis:i want to base it around something about how what nora did verses what krogstad did.nora would habbe been in more trouble,and while it was not acceptable it was more understandable when krogstad forged a signature.i'm just not sure how exactly to word this correctly.

so,my thoughts are that because of society at this time or the world presented to us by isben,men are seemed to be higher up on the "importance scale" than women. so if a man commited a crime,its still a problem, its still a crime but it's almost more acceptable than if it was a woman commiting the crime;case an point krogstad.

while he commited a crime,he still lived his life in society,still held a job,it might have taken him some time to do so,but it was still done.

when nora commited the same crime,her downfall would have been much harder.living without a husband,trying to find work,a record of poisioning her children,being forced away from them,along witht the fact that she would have been arreseted,and most likely thrown in jail.

but their motives were the same!both wanted to save someone,to protect someone in their family,but a crime was still commited,so why does krogstad get to stand in society and nora hides her head?

because he's a man????i do not find this fair.

QUESTIONS TO ANSWER OR POSSIBLE COUNTER ARGUEMENTS!
what other play rights were around during ibsen's time?or atleast the most prominate?and would they have similair views apon women,because this was the way of the time?

how do you know that these crimes were similiar and that they were done with similair motives?

could the only reason in the differnt punishments in these crimes be that krogstad was a man while nora was a woman?

do you nthink krogstad's possition in society(his job,his family)could have contributed to his protection?would nora have had this same protection from punishment as well?

so i'll look in on these,to help my thesis.
if you see any other arguements against my posisble thesis idea,could you tell me?or if i'm totally wrong in the similairities of these crimes can you tell me as well?

reading-i finished six characters and i want to re-analyse it,because i feel like i didn't get it again.i feel like i'm reading either along the surface,or tooooooooo deep into it.most likely the first.

and doll's house i need to re-read for evidance as well as find other plays around the same time.go reading!

but another question,if we find plays that help our thesis,we can mention them,but what about all the other plays from the same era that don't,what about all of those?because i feel it would be pretty hard to mention all plays from that one era,when do we know when to stop?

as for monologues,i bought my play fat pig,and i hope that my mom e-mailed you.she's aproved the play,and i've been telling her to send you an e-mail,so hopefully she will soon.

i've found a possible monologue,or a partial monologue,i just want to read the whole play bfore i deside for definate.

thursday-the end of 6 characters.

so it's all come together.kind of.

the boy.the young boy.what's his deal?for lack of a better term.he's like some little suicidal emo kid.and what happened in the garden with the little girl?did she drown?did she die?what happened?and how was the mother and son involved in all of it?

the mother and son are weird.because they don't do anything.they had amoment where everything felt like i was going to change,or we would know what was going on between them,but there never was.apparently it never happened,but according to the step-daughter something did...

now the step-daughter.why wasn't she surprised by the little boy having a revolver!he's young and she's like,whats that in your pocket?,like it was candy or somehting!i would have been screaming!!!why didn't she freak out???

and the little boy.he shot himself. and the sister drowned while following the brother,i guess.so the step-daughter sees this and starts crying?then the older brother comes in and what does he do?tries to save her.but then the little brother goes and blows his brains out?????

what the.......!!!!!!!!!!!

then why,why was the step-daughter running away from the family and laughing,was this her was of saying "screw you all!i'm sick of this f-ed up family!"?

and why are the characters almost chained together?the son says he came here not me!pointing torwad the father.so is it like some power thing with the father,but because the step-daughter is not a whole part of the family she can leave?

i need to re-read and think because i'm kinda blown away as to what just happened.

pg-100

today i came prepard for independent activity.i wrote my blog and read.i tried to grasp the repetition today,and i think we just have to really break down,but we also have to think.i'm afraid that i can't find anything in people besides the ovious,and then everyone repeats the same things like your scared,your faking,your nervous,your defensive.and when you ask people how they feel,i would always want to just scream at the other person how dare you judge me like that!or how do you see that!thats not true!but the truthfullness doesn't matter?

thats the whole purpose of the exercise.....!!

maybe i'm just over thinking everything.wouldn't be a shock to me.anayway.i think i should get a hundred today because i over think!

wednesday's post.

six characters update-what is going on?

i'm so confussed about six characters.

the son finally comes into play.and i'm not even sure why.there was a problem with him and his mother,but they never say what.is he mad at her abandoning him?leaving for another man?then coming back with 3 brand new siblings. is that what happened?

will we ever know what happened?i'm so lost.first it's one thing going on,then someone says no thats false or thats not right,and i just sit and say...what?

i'm up to the point where the actors come up to the characters and study them and observe them.i thought that was almost funny because the sterio-type of actors is that they have to STUDY and BECOME ONE with the character.but they get pushed away by the son,father and the director even!so that was a good moment.

i'm almost done with the whole play,only about 2-3 pages left in the norton anthologly.looking forward to maybe figuring everything out,maybe,hopefully.

tech time!

quick participation again.

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today,i helped with the teching as much as i could.i really want to be involved with the tech side,because i've never seen that side of theatre before.i've always been on stage,but i really want to be well rounded in all aspects of theatre.i tried to learn from the audtions today.because i have really bad nerves,so i saw how everyone controlled them well.and i saw what you ment by a director wanting to change what the actor is or does,but the actor is almost the clay,and has to be molded,while the director is the artist that forms the actor.

tuesday...i'm confused,but i get it!how is that possible.i'm not sure.but its happening!

today was,interesting to say the least.

i got to the part where the mother freaks out about the father and daughter.i really feel bad for her.she not only lives her life in the torture of what happened,but then she see's it.

and what the daughter says to the mother is scary.she is telling her mother to scream,to scream at what they've done again.and then the mother just goes and has to stop it.she can't live with it,but she has to.

and i read the part with the father and director.how the character's lives are more real than the directos,i kinda picked up the message but at the same time,i was lost.

which brings me tooo......hyperbolic doubt!wow.

the father goes into a whole rant on how he's more real than the director,and i'm thinking does that relate to hyperbolic doubt at all?becuase its like,the director can live day by day and all he knows is that he's there and alive.because he thinks.the characters think,but do they stray form their characters?no.so isn't that what we all do?we all have characters.that we play our personalities are all our thinking....

wait.thats so not hyperbolic.i'm wrong then.

but i totally understood today in class!i think.ha.i think it's my belief so its true.but its not becuase i have some doubt in it.only i am true.

but six characters,the father is right.he's more real because he doesn't change persay.he lives as his character.he's not real,more of an idea brought to life and taken apon it's self to live and breathe.the director is just himself and he changes daily,his days could be real,or they could be a dream,but his NOW is real,his thinking at that moment is real.he is real,but he will change and this only truth is his thoughts,just like ours.the father on the other hand is all truth,because he comes froma thought,all his actions are thoughts because he is a character.not a living human.so he will always be real 100%,but the director only has his thoughts.

that's hyperbolic doubt.

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today.i took notes.i wrote this blog.and i participated in the class discussion.i tried to keep up.and i hope i did.i got it,and now i jst have to obsess over it.i will never stop thinking about htis.becuase it just like,changes you.and shockingly i've thought of that before,how in the world do we know anything is truth?well we know were truth.thats it.anyway.i hope to help out tomorrow with auditions.and i deserve a 100 for today.

monday's post

so here we go with six characters.

the show has begun,persay.

the father and daughter did their whole scene.then they bring in the leading man and lady.and then its an actual rehersal.but the characters want it to be real,want it to really be them on stage without being on stage.

the step daughter is really interesting.she just. i don't know.explodes maybe?when the leading lady does her scene,or when she sees a part of the madame pace scene isn't there.she has to explain herself.

and what happened!wow.i was like screaming.its creepy,but interesting at the same time.and i love what the director says to her when she tries to tell mhim what happened.

"this is theatre!our motto is:truth up to a certain point!"

thats what the whole play is kind of about.pirandello just wants us to see that real and truth don't mean the same thing in theatre.you can have something that is real or could really happen,but its not the truth.the truth is every word,every action,what wants to be seen and what doesn't want to be seen all at the same time.all rolled into one.

the truth tops the real.

thats what i get out of it so far.

oh and i totally want to kill the father becuase he confusing me to no end.he just rants about all this philiosopical stuff,and i just sit for ever reading it over and over and over again,and i'm still like "yes...ok...i get it....anddddd....you lost me."

thats it!

participation really quick!

pg-100

so i can't blog today,becuase my dad has to work.but i have participation.today i had my blacks again.i participated with the grid exercize,and i'm pretty sure i was either breaking focus or in my own mind the whole time.but i'll get better i hope!i'm have some questions about the finals though...

are there finals every marking level?because i was lost about those...

anyway.i tried hard today,i hope it shouwed,and i really have to work on my focus.thats why i deserve a 100!

a doll's house-series of events

a doll's house.

it begins with the platform that everything in the household is ok.the family isn't rich or poor,but middle/high class.the wife has been shopping,the husband has been doing his work in the next room,eveything's good.

next,mrs.linde comes into the picture.she returns to her friend nora,after years of a hard working life,without her husband.and the issue of torvald's illness comes up.the audiance learns that the family had to spend a year on a vacation for torvald's health.

when nora tells mrs.linde that she didn't get the money for the trip from her father,but rather forged his signature on her own bank loan,and the money was given to her by krogstad.and that torvald does not know.

then,krogstad comes to talk with nora.saying that he knows nora's father didn't sign the loan,that it was forged.and that he will tell trovald what nora has done if she is un-able to convince torvald to let krogstad keep his position at the bank.(this is the insighting action.)

nora then hopes for a miricle,she hopes that rank,out of the kindness of his heart will give her the money to pay off krogstad.

nora later tries to plea krogstad's case to torvald.begging torvald not to fire krogstad.when this fails,she looks toward her last hope,rank.

rank comes to visit torvald,and has a quick chat with nora.while nora begins to ask him about the money,rank tells her,that he thinks he will soon be dying,and that he is in love with her,making nora unable of asking him for money.

shortly after,krogstad comes to talk with nora as well.saying since he's been fired,he wants a higher position at the bank.and if he can't get it.her secret is coming out.

when krogstad leaves,he places a letter explaining nora's wrongs in the letter box.

when christine learns of this she feels that the letter is for the best,that nora should tell her husband everything.

nora waits for her miracle.(end of act 2)

mrs.linde then meets krogstad.where she convinces him to give nora back her bond,and stop holding it over her.the two see that they love each other,and that their "messed up" lives could work out if they were together.mrs.linde and krogstad get their "happy ending" together.

later,nora and torvlad return home from their party.

torvald goes to the letter box,and sees what nora has done.he screams at her,saying how she's poisioning the children,and worrying about how he will look,how this will affect him.

when another letter comes from krogstad,saying that nora is basically excused from what she has done,that krogstad won't tell anyone.and torvald changes his mind about nora.he beggs her to come back,but nora's made her desision.

nora decides to leave.saying that she has poisioned the family,that by leaving she's helping her family,her kids.agreeing with torvald's first points,while torvald tries to convince her to come bakc ,to stay with the family.but she leaves.

six characters-thursday

they begin the play.its been decided that based on the characteres experiences,the script will be written then performed by the actors.

and madame pace is spanish.

i think i'm getting it a little better now.now that we'll get to see what happened in the dress shop,with madame pace and the father and step-daughter.becasue they'll perform it.

so the daughter is a prostitute of some sorts?is that why there is a problem between her and the father?so the father went to the shop,and got her.his step-daughter.

that is messed up!

but i find it really comical how all the characters don't really like the actors that play them.the step-daughter and leading lady are competing almost for their part.the father was just confused.the mother's actor had problems with the name.for the director its almost "do you want to direct????..no?then great let me do it!"

its the same with the set.i almost want to tell the characters,you chose to come in search of your author.now that you have your story being written,just let it be wrote.just let go.but i feel like they wish they could do it themselves and they don't understand the workings of a play.maybe in the end, the whole play could go up on smoke,just because of the characters,the people who brought the play there.

i just want to see what happens already.i wish i could read the whole play at once,but i wouldn't understand a thing.

pg-100
today.i had my blacks.i wrote my dialogue,and i did the blogging.i wanted to do the repatition,but i'm happy i didn't.becuase now i can see how to do it correctly,and repeate,rather than have a conversation with the other person.i will go next week.i'm promising myself.and i'm excited for independant activity.mine might be too,for lack of a better word,pointless.but i have to think it over again,pick something thats hard,and has purpose.

wednesday.six characters is jerry springer.

so.

whats going on here.

i have no clue.none.

the fathe rlikes to talk in long drawn out speeches,often times thats what throws me off.he was talking about being a different person for each action,while the daughter was saying something about a dress maker.

there is oviously something that happened between the father ans step-daughter.
then the step-daughter and the son
then the son and the mother.

but what is it!i feel like once they say what exactly happened,i'll get the play.

but i find it really interesting when the director comes into play.i feel at first its like hours of realism,then someone comments for a bit,then back to realism.its like what we do in class.

but back to the stroy.i feel like the father did something to the step-daughter.did he rape her or something?because thats what it sounds like to me.then that would explain the step-daughters anger toward him.

but what is up with this family!its like a jerry springer show gone to the stage with less cursing and fighting.i'm just confused with the whole conflict.and the language too a bit.its not old i know that!but i just feel like its different...i'm not sure why.

but i can't wait untill they "rehearse" the six characters real life drama.because that will be interesting.what will the actors do?just sit there?i will wait and see.

dialoge time!

ok.so this.might be a bit weird.see that both of my past characters have been really general,so i need to "define them" i guess.hopefully this makes sense.

we have megan(first monologue) and samantha(second monologue)the two girls are acquaintances,each knowing enough of the other to have an argument.

megan is the smarter of the two girls.more dark and artistic.thinks with more definition and clear thoughts.she is a writer.

samantha is a bubbly girl,who is "random" at times.she not dumb,but not smart,and is very defensive of herself.she tends to blurt out what is exactly on her mind.whether it makes sense or not.

part from soc: shelp.

begin.

megan-(almost mockingly and sarcastically)i see that this whole over thinking thing,is something you've put alot of thought into.

samantha-(catches hint.slightly ticked off)well writing is something you put alot of thought into.

megan-(laughing)yeah.but my interest has a purpose in life.thinking about thinking is fucking beyond pointless.it just gets too dam confusing,and by that time, its ironic that your straining yourself thinking about thinking!

samantha-it's not my interest!it's what was on my mind!is "angry writing" on your mind all the time then?

megan-yeah when i'm angry.

samantha-(defending herself)well thats pretty dam pointless too!angry writing?who thinks about that?who would take the time to break that down to an almost science?who would write angerly so much,that they could discribe it like you did?

megan-anyone can describe something sam.it's not hard.

samantha-is that like some fucking stupid joke or something?!!?because listen bitch!i am far from stupid!

megan-maybe it is,maybe it isn't.maybe i think your one of the stupidest persons i've ever met!

samatha-(seems at a loss for words)well...it's....i....but.....bleh!fucking shelp.

megan-did you just say shelp?what in the hell is shelp?

samantha-i don't know its the first thing i could fucking think of!maybe its some fucking swedish band or some shit!

megan-why the hell is it swedish?

samantha-i don't know!it sounds fucking swedish!so i think it is!why don't you look it up or some shit!

megan-i really want to know now.like.is it really swedish?here i'll check on my phone.

samantha-really?are you serious right now?

megan-..how would you spell that?shelp?s-h-e-l-l-p-p?or one p?or one l?what do you think?

samantha-how the hell should i know!i'm just shocked how your trying to look this up.(rools eyes during megan's speach.stays for a bit.then leaves.)

megan-ok.so shelp.one l one p,is a indie rock band,that uses sheep recordings in all of their songs.there lead singer is named katie B-brownie.guitarist is caitlin schweer.weird name on that one.they have 5 sheep named happy,sappy,rappy,tappy,and bill.and they are from....NORWAY?!i really thought you were right on that one sam.this band seems really cool though.oh look they're going on tour soon!and they're stopping right around here!god.i really want to see them now.i'm like shocked how you totally guessed that though.its like you have esp or something.right sam?(notices sam has walked away)uh sam...want me to get you a ticket?

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