tuesday

another day of cherry orchard.

i feel like nothing is going on!what am i missing?everyones just catching up,trying to save the house,what else is there?????

i'm getting frustrated with this,because i feel like i'm missing something huge!but i have no idea what it is.and thats annoying the crap out of me.

leonid gayev talks to much;he's like the grandfather that keeps telling war stories or tells family secrets to the grandkids that aren't suposed to know.

varya is a big worrier.anya is the ideal little sister.thats all i really see!

anger directed toward cherry orchard and its meanings.anger directed toward my stupid little mind for not clicking with the story!

anyways...

also reading mrs.julie and i like it so far.even though it's a sextus piece of work its still good.

jean is such a jerk!i don't understand why julie likes him or lets him get away with what he's saying to her!

"miss julie-you talk as if your already stood high above me.
jean-well don't i?don't forget i could make you a countess but you can never make me a count."

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

first of all,julie might be treating him like an equal,like he's her boyfriend or what ever.but she is still above him in society,and she realises that.you would think jean would like being equal,that he would like not being told what to do.but he doesn't!he acts as if he's been above all along,that julie is just another person.sure he's mettions the fact that he is a servant,but then he goes back to beinga popus little...jerk!

and why is julie below him?????because she's a girl??????????

i dislike jean.

and julie just takes it!i thought she was a stronger character than that!but i guess not.

and finally.i started to read mud.just like the first scene.i had to put it down for a second,and just take a step back and say,did they just actually say that????

i want to read it but i'm almost fearful.like the first few lines and they had already dropped the f-bomb.twice.by the 20th line.so what else could possibly happen?

anyway.i'm sure i'm missing more than i know.in miss julie and cherry orchard.but it will click at some point,its just how i role.same with uncle vanya.it just might take a bit.

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i participated in the class disscussion today.i'm trying to look for more in everything,in the plays and the movie.i attempted with the monologue today...not to much fun.i had more memorized and it just flew out the window.like woosh!i also did journals today and i read,and i tried to memorize more of my monologue.