thursday-the end of 6 characters.

so it's all come together.kind of.

the boy.the young boy.what's his deal?for lack of a better term.he's like some little suicidal emo kid.and what happened in the garden with the little girl?did she drown?did she die?what happened?and how was the mother and son involved in all of it?

the mother and son are weird.because they don't do anything.they had amoment where everything felt like i was going to change,or we would know what was going on between them,but there never was.apparently it never happened,but according to the step-daughter something did...

now the step-daughter.why wasn't she surprised by the little boy having a revolver!he's young and she's like,whats that in your pocket?,like it was candy or somehting!i would have been screaming!!!why didn't she freak out???

and the little boy.he shot himself. and the sister drowned while following the brother,i guess.so the step-daughter sees this and starts crying?then the older brother comes in and what does he do?tries to save her.but then the little brother goes and blows his brains out?????

what the.......!!!!!!!!!!!

then why,why was the step-daughter running away from the family and laughing,was this her was of saying "screw you all!i'm sick of this f-ed up family!"?

and why are the characters almost chained together?the son says he came here not me!pointing torwad the father.so is it like some power thing with the father,but because the step-daughter is not a whole part of the family she can leave?

i need to re-read and think because i'm kinda blown away as to what just happened.

pg-100

today i came prepard for independent activity.i wrote my blog and read.i tried to grasp the repetition today,and i think we just have to really break down,but we also have to think.i'm afraid that i can't find anything in people besides the ovious,and then everyone repeats the same things like your scared,your faking,your nervous,your defensive.and when you ask people how they feel,i would always want to just scream at the other person how dare you judge me like that!or how do you see that!thats not true!but the truthfullness doesn't matter?

thats the whole purpose of the exercise.....!!

maybe i'm just over thinking everything.wouldn't be a shock to me.anayway.i think i should get a hundred today because i over think!