wednesday's post.
so now i know that shen teh and shui ta are the same person,from the text though! i think she knows that she's not the angel the gods believe anymore.she knows that making up shui ta was the wrong thing to do,but now she's stuck and has to try to be the best she can as shen teh,and i think she's even trying to be a better shui ta too.because from what i read when shui ta talks to sun about the 200 dollars he seems to have a little less agressive personality and more of the nice shen teh.but i think that because shen teh can be mean like that, that would be her real thoughts.its like what everyone wishes they could have someone to be able to speak their real thoughts without any reprocusions.shen teh is living the dream!
i'm just trying to like contimplate the "good and bad"-ness of shen teh and shui ta and everyone else.i feel that all the other characters besides sun really-because he's marring just for money when he's able to make money,and is a complete ass basically about it!he thinks of shen teh as a money machine,just his own little atm,because she's a successful but she trusts in people's character which is a huge mistake.but all the other characters are good because they're not perfect but they admit it and they know that about themselves.instead of lying and putting on a mask so they can look happy and perfect they're themselves.and they accept that they're not perfect.shen teh i think is just mean,evil,and stupid underneath everything but she's created the "shen teh character" not the shui ta character she just pushed all her bad attributes into a man as an alternative identity.
so could that be sextus in a way?like brecht is saying that women can't or shouldn't speak their mind and only men can and should?because thats not at all true.its like the same idea that you were telling us about disney and how most villans are women in power.just reversed roles and in a weird perspective.
brecht why are you making me think so much??????
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thrusday's post.
ah!i'm so mad at shen teh.she's so stupid!she gave up a life of like having her shop,getting married to a stable man who DIDN'T want to just take her for her money.but gave it up for someone who she met once and just fell in love with like that!she knows what he wants to do,so why does she choose to ignore it!she's better than that like really.she can have a better life by herself or something other than someone who just wants her money,then wants her to give up her life so he can move on with his dream,but what about what she wants to do?and she's a hiderance to sun!he would just leave her while he goes to flight school.
shen teh knows that he wants to do this,and she tries to leave and makes arrangements to marry someone else,but she just drops him like a fly.she's being playied!how is that smart?i know she's trying to give everyone a chance and trying to let everyone have a chance to be good,but she can't help everyone thats just impossible.
he's not a good person.but he knows it!he knows that he can toy with shen teh and that she'll come crawling back.he can just act good for a moment and shen teh will come running back in hope that he's good.that's when having hope and hoping for everyone's humanity to be like yours(or in her case her ideal humanity)just becomes useless,and you can't help everyone.
i feel bad for mr.shu fu because he just lost his fiance as quickly as he got her.but its a pinch of karma there because he injured wang so he shouldn't get anything because of that cruelty.
i like wang.he seems like the only real character,he is who he says he is.and he knows how people work.he's the only one who is truely good because he tries to be and accepts when he can't be.so go wang!
pg-100
today we had chi ti with jessica.which was fun.i wish we could have learned more.because i tried it once i got home and it just felt really cool.the acting games were interesting,and hard at the same time.though i'm wishing i asked how they can be used in acting.how would the soilder,guard,knight game be used just like group mind and quick thinking?i'm really not sure.and i asked a question about college.so that clariffied alot.but i wished i asked sooner.
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